Faith Under Fire by William Duby

Faith Under Fire
An Article by Rev. Bill Duby


The following is an article written by the founder of SRF Bill Duby in the year 2001 - the year God decided enough was enough then reached down and yanked up Bill by the ear. Where Bill went from there is pretty obvious.  Good thing he was wearing fireproof undies.

Bill wrote this mess in response to his chickens coming home to roost. Many of his formally loyal followers were departing.  Fewer students were coming in the door.  The school board was after his truant child, the county was after him for building code violations, he was named prominently in child custody cases, and piece after piece appeared in the news media; none flattering.

I saw Bill at that time. He was uncontrollably angry, frustrated and simultaneously depressed that his idiot behavior was coming back to haunt him at last. He was famous for lashing out at whoever was handy whenever he was frustrated. This time, he couldn't lash out at his victims - they were long gone and those left had nothing he could use to demean them. So, he wrote this collection of vomit and other bodily discharges in the hopes he could upset his targets.

It didn't work. They read it out loud and ridiculed it - just the same as they saw Bill do to so many others. I'm told it was a good time. Sorry I missed it.

This collection of hate and delusion is a perfect example that Bill Duby was either a consummate con man or a maniacal psychotic. Come to think of it, he was probably both.

The original article appeared in the print version of "American Spirit Newspaper".  While the Spiritual Rights Foundation still marvels at Bill's incoherent ramblings in their official print organ "American Spirit Newspaper" and other recorded materials, they appear to be ashamed of this article "Faith Under Fire".  Come to think of it, now that SRF has dumped all writings by anyone and the only recordings sold by the Health and Wealth enterprise are those read by or featuring anyone but Robin DuMolin and Angela Silva, I guess they are just trying to keep the skeletons in the closet.

When it was alive in its online version, American Spirit Newspaper proudly displayed many of Bill's writings. However, Faith Under Fire was conspicuously absent. If this article is such a truthful and honest disclosure of the reprehensible and obviously vengeful behavior of injured ex-members, why not post it prominently?

I think we know why. Just read a couple of paragraphs. It will make itself plain.



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A scan of the original print version can be found here on MSN SkyDrive:



From the June-July 2001 Issue of American Spirit Newspaper: 

The above art accompanied the following article.

Actually,a judge advocate is a military attorney.

Who knows what they meant.

"My Little Corner of the World" 
Editorial column in "American Spirit Newspaper" June/July 2001

By Rev. Wm. Duby, Founder & Pastor of the Spiritual Rights Foundation

Faith Under Fire

This article is study material. It brings to light psychical energies that influence everyone. It reveals truth and as Jesus said, Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.


I consider my life worth nothing to me. If only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.
- Acts 20:24 NIV


I know a foolish group of ministers who have thought to become an unfaithful lot. I was their teacher long ago. We laughed and played until they took life too seriously.

We once walked together in our mission to uphold the faith of Jesus Christ, and the power of his Holy Spirit to work things out through love for the truth, so help us God. This was our bond and the royal purpose of ordination. I haven't seen some of these people for five years and others for ten to fifteen years.

Some may feel I should feel sorry for these lost souls. What good would it do? I am not their judge, jury or executioner. What they have done, and what they continue to do, is done with malicious intent to do injury and harm. Spiteful people are vicious. Wherever they go they bring pain, dissension and discord for all to experience.

I loved the tabernacle of their soul nature in the many yesterdays of long ago, and today they hate me for it because they live in the memory which will not bring them happiness until they reciprocate. So they stay stuck where they thought to be, and this is their diabolical work. . .

For the past five years I have been the target of their rage. I guess I was an outrageous kind of guy, and they couldn't handle it. What I suspect their problem with me was that - I didn't do things the way they thought I should have. I didn't think, act or do it their way. Holding such an insane notion in their mind is ludicrous. Listen! If I should have, I would have, because I could have. But I couldn't because I shouldn't and the God of my heart made sure I wouldn't - so that they would learn to grow up and get over their problem with authority figures.

This group of men and women have disgraced themselves by prefabricating lies and deceits, intentionally becoming fraudulent in their demonic activity because of their treacherous hearts. Each knew better than to do what they did inasmuch as they were well taught, nevertheless they did the unspeakable, the impious, knowing they were without excuse. Irreverent men and women turned the holy into the unholy, soiled the holy cloth of Christ by treating it as though it was a filthy rag, thus defrocking themselves in their insubordination to dare and serve the anti-Christ in their secret plot.

My life, my past and my way of being was clearly exposed to these people while they were with me. I hid nothing from them. I found heartless people with twisted minds who bent the truth to justify their cause. I am reminded by them why I was born with panic disorder. You should be afraid of such people who are like "wolves in sheep's clothing."

What was said in private and in the confidence of the sacrament of confession was gladly taken to the public and twisted to disgrace me.

Deciding to humiliate me is proof they don't want me to have the grace they now lack.

My name was slandered and my devotion desecrated in private and misrepresented in the press. Yet, I do nothing except what I am now doing because there is nothing else I need to do. I have the faith that they do not and I certainly keep my place in it. Why? Vengeance is mine saith the Lord. Someday they may come to learn this important lesson. Until then I am sure they believe they have been given a great mandate to protect society and its people from the likes of me. Good! I am confident that those who would listen to them should stay away from me else risk awakening to the light of the truth that could burn the hell out of them. Anyone with eyes to see and ears to hear knows well that my battle isn't with these lost souls. It may look that way because they want to make it a personal fight.

A war between good and evil is taking place. I look into the world of the spiritual. I did a good deed in getting through to them. I AM DOING IT NOW, AS WELL! The way I am, shook the very foundation of their existence. I didn't even try! I just knew BS when I heard it. All I did was stand up for the truth the best way I knew how at the time. In seeing my integrity they threw away their own. What a foolish thing to do. Why do it? Theirs wasn't grounded in the sure foundation of the Word of God. They were swept away by their own conceit that they knew better.

Misguided faith is powerless in slaying me, or anyone else - in the spirit - because it is speaking on behalf of self. On the other hand, bringing glory to the very One that brought us both into being is a true and grounded reality.

I am doing what I was ordained to do. I am getting even by keeping the faith rather than going mad, by getting mad. I have presented my case before the heavenly. As Jesus said, it is not I but the father within me that doeth the works. Isn't it true for all of us? So let's give credit where credit belongs - to Him!

Without boast or brag about the majesty of the Lord, I am safe because I keep the faith by working my heartfelt conviction. There is One greater than I who has forgiven me, as I have forgiven others long before they dared to ask. This has blessed me with the power to forgive myself for the past, present and future. Without such grace I would remain the wretch I was before I was saved from the disgrace of not knowing myself like my elder brother Jesus knew Himself. My victorious spirit belongs to Him alone - for it is He, not me, that does the work of lifting me up into the consciousness of his glory.

I am clean in my heart because it is in alignment with the grand and glorious One. Confession is good for the soul. I did mine before this bunch and they made a mockery of me in public for personal gain. Under the authority of moral and legal law they should have kept their tongue from being unruly; and if they were to speak they needed to speak the whole truth so help them God, else remain silent to keep in good standing with themselves. But they didn't and that's that. So now they are held in bondage under the karmic law they sought to use to persecute me. When you exercise an "eye for an eye" mentality you don't see clearly because you are dying to live in darkness of the lie. I am not at liberty to work out my karma. I have none. Karma has nothing to do with me. I don't play in the chaos of duality. I am a free man. I live under the law of grace. I work for all humanity to freely have what I have been given freely, the elegance of HIS GRACE!

I am contrite today as I was when I was with these complaining people. I dare say that my volunteer work is my witness of being true to my word. I never said I was good in any sense of the word.

There is none good but God! It is my job to know this truth. I shared it with them as well. I told them that I could not enlighten them. I could enlighten me, and they could do the same, enlighten themselves as well. I believed they could have done so by studying the Word of God. It worked for me, why not them? But they didn't study it enough to realize that it isn't open to private interpretation. They sought their own way. The "turn the other cheek" mentality was rejected by them else they would think foremost about forgiving me. But they can't because they know right from wrong, and the wrong they do isn't right. Absent of the compassion of Christ for His Humanity they set off to do their dastardly deed, powerless to discern the truth from the lie - and fell head first into a living hell that they have yet come to see!

I am without fraud in representation of myself. I was their mentor for a time but only one of many they came to know. I was a friend instead of an enemy. There wasn't one of them that I didn't give my all to. I walked and talked with them, Out in the open. I didn't hide anything from them. I lived as a man, walked and talked as a man. I didn't try to act good and perfect.

Let's say for the sake of argument that their hypothesis is true - I am a shady character! That I am a terrible and wicked influence. That I have wronged them. Well then, let's look at it sensibly! Two doors are open to them. The legal door opens when they have found factual evidence of proving it in a court of law. And in that case, I have the right to see the face of my accusers. I have seen none. In a cowardly manner they have maligned me because of their malignant intent to pervert the truth. Where are my accusers? Where are these so called "defenders of faith?" They are nowhere to be seen, probably hiding in the closet with all their skeletons and reading their quotes in the filthy rags of yellow journalism.

Now the second door! The moral door opens when they pray they are rightly used by God to bring me back to my senses through repentance to make restitution for going astray. But they can't do that when they have left the faith by being faithless in their own right - to wrong another they are in competition with and jealous of for Christ sake! If they had walked through this door I'd discover I was forgiven before I dared to ask. But such is not the case.

So now these people stand for nothing worthwhile. None of them can go through either door. Each is stuck on the picture of thinking they know better but the fruit of their labor stinks to the highest heaven. They are self righteous hypocrites!

It took nine (9) months of investigation before these people wrote their scathing article. From December unto September they searched high and low for dirt. No criminal record was found. You can't find what doesn't exist. All they found was hearsay. You know how gossip works don't you? You tell a lie and I tell a lie and that's how we become "fair weather" friends. This is what they did to paint a horrific picture for all to see. Defamation of character was their fixation. When they came up empty handed they created a composite image of themselves and called it me.

Allegations are not charges, and charges are not convictions.

My Judge Advocate rules the heavens and the earth. All power is His Own. He is letting me know that He is allowing me to be used by his Grace to let the likes of such people put themselves into heaven or hell by how they treat me.

I offer them this writing as a treatise for peace. Yet, I know it shall be rejected because Jesus was rejected in their heart before they rejected me in their mind.

I have let them down. Good! It is high time they learned to quit expecting of others what they would hate to be expected of them. I told them early on that I was not the one t look to as their role model. Their problem is with Jesus not me. Blame Him for how I am. I am only as God created me to be. I can be no more or less. I work for Him to be alive in my life, not what others think should be. I teach up front that I believe it is far better to go this way in your thinking than what these people have lost themselves in. If these people did believe in Jesus they'd listen to me; they didn't listen to me anymore than who they said they believed in. Therefore their faith is a faithless faith.

Can you imagine the chaos in every college if students were allowed to persecute the teacher because they didn't learn what was taught?

I am only responsible for teaching the subject matter. It is the students responsibility to learn what was taught. Like the song says, "I never promised you a rose garden."

I am a volunteer worker. I have handicaps like many. Some volunteer to be a fireman while others volunteer to work in a hospital. I volunteer to minister when I am welcome to do so. I work for free because I want freedom. I know the law and I live under rule of law. It is my religious belief.

Jesus didn't need payment as a member of the clergy. In fact, He wasn't even accepted as a member of the clergy of His day. Yet, He knew that all belonging to His Father was His, and He shared it all with those who were in agreement with Him. I follow the law of man, as I have come to know how to do, because the Spirit of God has taught me well to do so. Do I eat of the show bread? Did King David?

I have become an icon for evil to those who have lost their way. Good! Now they will come to learn that what they thought was their way is not their own. When the heart isn't in an upright condition the mentality of the mind is unsound. In such a state one becomes a stumbling block preventing others from coming to their senses.

The news media wants us to lose ourselves in sensationalism to sell us their newspapers. This is their fiendish reasoning for fabricating a story long before they twist the truth of it. This is why the statement was coined: "The pen is mightier than the sword." The pen can kill you just as easily as the sword without it leaving any trace of blood evidence. Making the news and reporting the news are two different things. The men and women in the media need to report it instead of making it.

Journalism often destroys the journalist and leaves in hell the corrupt reporter who without conscience dreams of tearing another down to build up himself in personal fame and glory.

Here is what I know to be true for me. This group is pleased to ridicule me in public. To do unto me wheat they would never want done unto them. Yet, I did them no wrong. But there is a wrong doing. Let me explain!

I am being troubled because I reached out and helped block a woman from further abuse. One of the men was betraying her trust in him as her husband. He went so far as making sure she couldn't ever again see him in that light.

I was asked to talk to him on her behalf. I talked to him about the marriage he so desperately needed for well being. But he was so cock-sure of himself that he thought he didn't have to listen. This man heard from me what he couldn't hear from her. He didn't like hearing it but he heard it. And as a result, he has continued to do to me what he can no longer do to her. For this, I am glad because she is free of his tyrannical rule. She has a new life. She is independent and a God fearing woman. He, on the other hand, has gone mad. Mad at me for what he failed to do for himself, get humble!

I speak the truth for God is my witness, and he left behind a large body of people who watched him terribly assail her beliefs and quality of self worth in being female.

Here is where I stand with the truth. I am only guilty in giving a helping hand to a woman. But to this man, and his group of cronies, I am guilty of breaking up a family. This is untrue! It was me that helped him get married. I warned both of the pitfalls beforehand. I am the one who encouraged them to have a child. I helped them in many ways. In fact, I helped all the others as well.

I didn't break up their marriage. I don't have such power. I did what I could to try and prevent the inevitable.

You can never lose what is yours!

If this man was truly her husband he would have kept his peace by keeping his place with God. He wanted to be right rather than in love. He wanted to control her! Her indomitable spirit demanded equality. He didn't realize she was unyielding in her need. She had something to say. She wanted her voice to be heard. This why they constantly fought.

All she asked him to do was quit the abuse. It was too much for her to bear. She was always a nervous wreck after dealing with his screaming, ranting and raving. She couldn't handle his "back-mouthing" her when she spoke. She asked him to stop it, and to put away his bad-temper! He couldn't respect her wishes. It was too much for her to ask!

He said he couldn't live her way, he couldn't live like that. He left her - she didn't leave him. He destroyed her trust in him. He did it to himself. He destroyed what could have been a wonderful marriage. He couldn't see she was doing what she could to save their marriage. He saw things differently.

He thought we were conspiring against him. He saw it that way because he was bent out of shape. He wanted to believe the lie else he'd have to clean up his act. Here is how I see it! If he couldn't control and continue his abuse of her, he didn't want her. He couldn't blame himself because that's the manly thing to do. So he blamed me. Good! Now he can live in self denial, and suffer as a consequence of lying to himself.

Pain is a good teacher. Pain is his teacher now. When he grieves enough he will see what he lost by what he took for granted, namely, the beloved mother of his child.

He has labored greatly since the fateful day he walked away in to the darkness because of lacking common sense. He has worked diligently in being crafty in his machinations, conniving day and night, consorting with others to appease him.

I have heard he has spent somewhere in the neighborhood of $40,000 dollars, to convince the family court that the church is a wicked cult, and that I am a horrible and terrible ruler from the nether world. He believes I control and dominate the life of everyone around me. He gives me far too much credit. I will admit that we all influence each other. But Jesus taught well that nobody has any power over anyone except that it be given to them from heaven; therefore; God is in control.

He had half legal custody of his child but that wasn't enough. He wanted more. He hungered for total custody. It was his way of teaching his wife she had made a mistake in demanding equal partnership in marriage. Holy wedlock, he couldn't stand; locking her into pandemonium by taking away the child was what he sought. This was severe enough and just punishment. He would teach her who was the master. So he fought the fight of the dirty who soil the cloth of righteousness.

He went after me with the prayer and hope the court would use his negative image of me, as posted in the newspapers, to steal away custody of the beautiful child they created together in lovelier times. His prayers weren't answered, and his hope was hopeless because the Almighty knew better.

He failed himself miserably in his pursuit because he didn't understand the concept of jurisprudence. He took his fight to the wrong court. You don't try religious liberty in family court. The man with genius leaves the civil liberties of another alone unless he risks losing his own.

His disbelief in me and my ways are litigated in the Presence of God, not man.

He needed to prove his lovely wife was unfit. He couldn't do that because he knew better. The angelic face of his daughter revealed that truth, and the psychologist chosen to look at her in depth was mesmerized by her beautiful way of how she was at home with herself. So the mad man lost his case for he tried to make the lie the truth but that's what liars do!

I warned him about trying to take his daughter away from her mother. He had to prove me wrong. In his impudent posturing to be stupid he has attained the impossible, and made himself look idiotic. The court didn't care about me. It cared about what was right for the child without stepping on the civil liberties of its citizens. The mother had done the proper thing in her rearing of the child. The court validated this truth. It didn't matter about my image to begin with. Surely then, it didn't matter about my image to end with. Either. So, his efforts were a waste of time, energy and money. But what did come out of it was good for all to see. He has become an example of what happens when you mock God. You go mad because blocking yourself from the truth is self damnation.

I unequivocally state that God is in control; only the deranged would think otherwise; doing so because they are other than wise in their undertaking and their foolishness ends in the office of the undertaker when you become a member of the dearly departed.

Taking upon ourselves the mantle of Deity is what the psychotic do when the wicked spirits enter the psyche and cause the psychosis of dementia. The self righteous become prey to madness by thinking they are right while working like the devil to disgrace another who reached out to help them know better for Christ sake!

He has been so busy digging up my past he's become a garbage collector. He judges the hell out of me. The more he hates me, the more free I am of the influence. His mind is consumed by my image. He can't get me out of his mind. I am his icon for evil. Yet, I am used by His Holiness to help him get over what this man has yet to discover about himself for well being.

He has gone out of his way to find other souls who have lost their way over the years. He has played upon their sympathies, and taken advantage of their ignorance. The evil in this world order perpetuates itself because the politics of the day are designed to thrive upon rumor and innuendo.

Newspapers sell because of the titillation of sensationalism that the authors of scathing articles premeditate. The same female reporter was met by this man and his child at the airport, long after the insulting article was published. His child made the comment to their mother. It was stated something like this but don't quote me. "We went to the airport to see our friend..." (the reporter)?. Friend! What does that tell you? Both knew each other. A little hanky-panky?

It started with him seeking her out. He had to find a sympathetic mean spirited individual like himself. Like attracts like. It was him looking for an unsuspecting soul to fabricate a best seller. She fell for it because she doesn't know firsthand how to prevent herself from becoming pretentious in the face of a stupid person. She has no God given reality she can honestly ground herself upon. That's what happens when you lack awareness. YOU become a fool so someday you will learn to become wise. If what the child said was true then collusion took place to concoct a story, believing if they wrote a contrived article the judge in the family court would give it credence because it was published in a mainstream newspaper.

If you ever failed to see the face of evil then look at it now!

Writing a slanderous article when your mind is already made up isn't journalism. It is evil doing. The female reporter was given plenty of evidence that what she was told was untrue but she chose to disregard the truth. She wanted to believe what she heard because it fit into her scheme of things. She printed lies or twisted truth. Yellow journalism.

St. Paul and Moses started their walk with the Lord as murderous men. He lifted them up in spite of themselves. He does it for us all when we come to the end. I haven't reached the darkest valley of St. Paul and I am not as good as Jesus. I can't be the Chief Sinner like Paul, and I can't be the Chief Savior like Jesus. I can only be the way I am. If the way works for God, He will save me for it. It is my faith that He has!

I have been put into my place by the founding Father of the Universal unknown. I know myself to be ordinary. It is my ordination to remain that way. I am just a guy who puts his pants on the same way as every other guy, one leg at a time. In fact, I am a repentant man who needs all the help he can get to make certain he doesn't fall in to the trap of trying to become good and perfect to please others. Trying to do so - be good for others sake - is an impossible task. It hurts like burning hell fire! Only the Lord can be good, and He did it already. If what He did isn't good enough then we have no hope.

What would the purpose of faith be without His Work?

The belief system of Jesus Christ has come to my rescue. I share it with you. It has saved me from the disgrace of trying to look good in the eyes of people.

I owe nothing to anyone for nay reason whatsoever because they damn well didn't create me. I have one Lord, and I have one Master. I do what I can to keep in touch with Him, and He does what He can to touch me with his Gracious and Glorious Spirit; and, if some are jealous of our relationship then they can just go to hell. If they want to use me to do it then what can I say? I am sure they will make me their icon - the symbol of the devil! Why not!

I am a spiritual teacher. I don't know everything but what I do know will save your soul for Christ sake! You may not agree with me but you can't help realize my faith is of a convicted sort. I don't ask that you believe in me. I do ask that you believe in yourself for that is the true doorway to your Maker.

Jesus took the inner path before you, and Christ met him in His heart with a compassion for the humanity. If you do the same you do yourself well, and we are friends. If not, well not!

I'll never be good enough for some and I'll never be bad enough for others. And neither will you!

I proclaim the gospel of peace. I am in quiet meditation.


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To the end, Bill denied everything. He said he had nothing, says nothing, did nothing and was responsible for even less.

Well, we will see about that.

Here's to the hope the Spiritual Rights Foundation will continue to do nothing, say even less and victimize no more spiritual seekers.

Psykics on Skype

A hilarious item on the Academy for Psychotic Studies' website is the section they have for psychotic readings via Skype.

We all know what Skype is and we all know we can use it to call anyone on the internet anywhere in the world for free.

The Academy for Psychic Studies figured it out too.  Maybe not quite as well as the rest of us, but they figured it out.

You see, they offer psychotic readings on Skype to anyone anywhere in the world with a Skype connection.  That's a great display of their interweb awareness and high technology knowledge, right?

Well before you start calling them the next Microsoft, check this out: in order to schedule that psychotic reading, you have to call up on their toll-free line - which only works in the Continental United States.

If you want a psychotic reading from anywhere else (like say, Canada) you are SOL.  And so are the leaders of the Academy as those who might have contacted them and paid good money for a psychotic reading can't possibly arrange a reading.

So, why not do it over the regular phone line?  Uh, it's called international phone rates and since the academy requires international callers to place the call from their own phone, it's a damn expensive call for those who receive a reading from the trained psychotics.  No one from outside the USA calls, even though the Academy craves the attention and revenue those callers can provide.

Of course, it makes perfect sense to have people call up on the phone for a Skype reading - even though Skype is an online PHONE service.  I wouldn't expect the Academy would use the webcam feature either.  Using a webcam would mean people can see your face and that would mean they could recognize you and if they did, they might stumble upon this blog and they would find out all the things the academy wouldn't want them to know and...

Well, you get the idea.

It's just another example of the technical and business genius of the Witches of Ellsworth - and another great example of how operating on the cheap has a financial return in proportion to your investment.

Doomsday Dingbats

OK, so May 21, 2011 has come and gone without the predicted apocalypse.

Unfortunately for those who hate this blog, I'm still here.  Unfortunately so are the people who believed the world would begin its end of days on the 21st.

Now, we don't need a psychic reading to know predicting the exact end of the earth is just not possible for any one of us.  Most of us (even the most devoutly religious) don't spend much time pondering the end of days.  However, a few do.


One of the most perverse, demeaning, useless and completely warped "classes" at the Academy for Psychic Studies has been the pinnacle of their "spiritual education" - the Revelations Class.

You might think the Revelations Class would focus on the study of the Book of Revelations.  In most cults, the obsession on the end of days and the coming apocalypse is pretty common.  The Academy for Psychic Studies isn't much different.  However, what went on in the Revelations Class was anything but the study of Revelations, Armageddon, the second coming (since God, Jesus Christ, Buddha, Allah and Mohammad were all simultaneously resident in the body of Bill Duby, the second coming already came) or anything even remotely related to any real biblical topics.

Of course, Bill and his Witches insisted the hapless attendees of the Revelations Class study the topics they directed and only those topics they directed.  Usually, it was the same damn stuff from Emanuel Swedenborg or the same passages of the Bible restated and re-told over and over again.  To Bill and the Witches of Ellsworth Street, repetition was the key to indoctrination and control of their victims.

Was the book of Revelations discussed in a scholarly or otherwise meaningful way?

What, are you kidding?

So, what was revealed at the "Revelations Class"?


Well, the leaders taking advantage of the opportunity to browbeat, demean, demoralize and dehumanize a captive audience pretty much revealed how sadistic, mean, unfair and unreasonable they were was revealed:

Revelations Class - where Bill's true nature was revealed.

It wasn't a revelation as they showed those qualities pretty much every day, but at least during the Revelations Class, they revealed their sadism and depravity in a spiritually acceptable way.

Read this if you want to see how the leaders pummel grown adults into a thin paste:

The Amazing, Unending Classes at the Academy for Psychic Studies

The "classes" at the Academy for Psychic Studies are deliberately and purposefully lead the new recruit one warm and nourishing step at a time from that first energy healing to the first psychic reading to the introductory classes right into the Clairvoyant Training Program.  It's there where your indoctrination is completed and your transition from psychic student to psychotic minister is completed.

The Clairvoyant Training Program is also where you will be led to the Revelations Class where your compliance and complete servitude will be reinforced with weekly beatings in front of as many of your peers and colleagues as can be mustered (well, they are only psychic beatings that leave only mental and emotional scars - so that's OK, isn't it?) and with as many bogus and pointless readings and psychotic interpretations of the same damn biblical passages over and over again.

What makes things even worse is that your own interpretations and personal meaning of the assigned passages will not be accepted.  What will be accepted is a meaning and interpretation that looks just like the hundreds or thousands written before you - and those acceptable writings were actually heavily re-written or totally re-done by a member of the fully-indoctrinated, boot-licking and compliant staff.

Think back to your school days.  Did any of your teachers re-write your assignments so they could be in an acceptable format?  Were they re-written so you would look like a compliant student to the school administration?

Hell no!  If you were't up to speed it's the short bus to drool school for you, buster.

A cult has different a agenda, though.  First among the list is their need to keep all their followers in line and compliant.  The cult needs to have living bodies to carry out their evil agenda.  Allowing individual thought allows the followers to figure out they are being screwed, and no self-respecting cult could allow that.

Cults also have to keep their followers yearning for more - more recognition, the hope of getting something like a retirement cottage after some time of service.  Maybe a chance at running a school of their own in San Jose or something; maybe even a chance to head up the whole damn garbage heap.

Of course, like all cults, the Academy for Psychic Studies does all of that and more.  Those who receive the most praise were those who fell in line walking, talking, living and breathing the cult's party line and regurgitating the defecations of the leaders over and over again.  If you want details, well you'll just have to wait on that.  There's only so much time I have to write, you know.

But all of us who were there saw it.  We lived it.  We may have even been all I say and we have have done unto others as was done unto us.  After all the time we have spent at the Academy, we know what we have seen there.  We know what we experienced.

It's not enough for me or anyone to just say what exactly happened.  For way too many, reading the details is just plain voyeuristic pleasure. I've heard from one woman who chided me and all of you saying that detailed stories were necessary for her to believe anything we said.

Think about that: she's trying to goad you, me and everyone else into releasing details about ourselves and those we know for no more reason than she wants to hear about them.  I didn't recall that she released any details about herself and her cultic experience, though.  I'm really not in the mood to satisfy someone's voyeuristic urge to watch a cultic reality show.  How about you?

At any rate, we have two separate but equally strange and frustrating situations:  one is a religious nut who uses the Book of Revelations to pollute the airwaves and scalding our eyeballs with deluded predictions of the end of the world in order to mock us with claims that he and his saved followers will ascend into Heaven while the rest of us will be eaten by zombies.

The other is a psychotic.

I think I'd rather take my chances with the zombies.

  

Dumb and so-dumb-it's-amazing

Like everyone else, I am constantly amazed by the resourcefulness and overall tenacity of everyday people.  Every now and then, you'll hear a story of someone reaching higher then thought possible.

Today I saw something so damn stupid, I can't believe it actually happened.

I was perusing the LIVE 365 site and found the Academy for Psychic Studies official internet radio site was playing a certain recording of a certain "psychic church service".

It was the infamous service where the psychic bishop of this psychic church not only admonished her followers to brush off any and all persons who might have philosophical or other differences with the Academy for Psychic Studies she also represents that utterly demented group as "the picture, the icon of.... Jesus Effing Christ".  All that took place in July of 2008.

I have the excerpts on this page but if you'd like to see for your self that the July 2008 church service is indeed back online, you'll have to go to the live365.com site and search for "Spirit Talk" to find it.  Don't ask why I can't put up a link but I will say it has something to do with the Witches of Ellsworth Street not wanting me to tell any of you what information about them is to be found online.

That particular psychotic church service is the watershed moment for many now-ex-members.  The message in this recording is clearly aimed at tightening the cult's grip on the few remaining followers and further insulate them from information that would allow them to awaken from their forced slumber.

The actual effect was the exact opposite of the intent - a condition that only the psychotics at the Academy for Psychic Studies could have created for themselves.  More followers departed after that strange and mean-spirited sermon.  More attention from the outside was focused on the psychotic church.  And more who would have come for the first time and stayed for a while never even made it to the front door.

Now some of you would think the posting of the July 2008 psychotic church service was done as a way to bait we dissidents and commenter's to make statements the Witches can pounce upon.  That's actually a valid observation but one that I have little belief is the actual intent.  You see, that kind of intent requires planning, good execution and the kind of complex and structured thought the Witches of Ellsworth Street and their addled followers just can't engage.  There is no damn way the brain-dead followers could concoct that scheme nor could the Witches have torn themselves away from their obsession of squeezing every available follower for spare change and other items of value to have dreamed up something that complicated.

Where's an Iraqi with a shoe when you need one?

I've been reviewing some of the recent SRF radio shows "Total Prosperity".

I'm not listening to every moment of every broadcast (who the hell has time for that?) but I do listen enough to figure out what is being said.

In the beginning, the show was a soapbox for Bill Duby (who for years was Total Prosperity's permanent "guest") to espouse his particular brand of philosophy and world view. Even if you didn't agree with him, the show was at least entertaining and did find an audience. The back and forth between Bill and Debi was somewhat entertaining as well.

Since Bill's death, Total Prosperity has struggled to find a direction. Without the unique point of view that was Bill Duby, the remaining "hosts" and "guests" just can't seem to find anything interesting to talk about week after week. So, every show deteriorates into the usual crap topics inspired by recordings made at SRF many years ago.

Topics such as:
Leaving the Painful Past Behind
Family Programming
Men and Women
Can You Unhook?

Not only are the topics on Total Prosperity old, worn and incomprehensible (can anyone define "unhook" - you can't find it by listening to Total Prosperity) these topics defecated on the public airwaves lack the insight (albeit a warped and deluded insight) from the long-time permanent guest.

Total Prosperity has become not only boring and tired but an utter waste of time.

So, in the tradition of "Amazing Discoveries" (that pioneering "show" of the late 80's), Total Prosperity has morphed into the radio infomercial for the Spiritual Rights Foundation.

While I've kept no statistics on how many times a class, workshop, Clairvoyant Training Program Open House, Hypnosis Training Program course or any other of the money-making ventures of the Spiritual Rights Foundation are mentioned, it's so much that I'm waiting for Billy Mays to start shouting at me.

I'm telling you, if I could heave a shoe over the radio...

The Academy for Psychic Studies - The Dead Zone

I found this piece online just recently.  Well, it was like, two minutes ago.  It started me thinking about the way the Academy for Psychic Studies is organized and run and especially about who's left and what's left of their assets. 

The writer was asked about the likelihood of Scientology ordering a mass suicide.  I agree it's not likely to happen at Scientology for exactly the reasons he states but whether the Academy for Psychic Studies will conduct a mass revolutionary statement that results in suicide of those who aren't in the inner circle isn't so clear:

Despite there being no classical earmarks of the likelyhood of mass murder/suicides, there does seem to be a set of requirements that cult followers adhear to before such incidents happen.

Scientology holds most of these requirements except for one; a major one: followers are usually in the criminal cult for less than 2 years. There's a constant flow of financial swindles and victims of fraud among the 99% of the rubes that come in, empty their pockets, twigg to the fraud, and then move on, poor but much wiser. Contrast that to cults which experience mass murder suicides. They have larger percentages of followers that have been in for decades with small percentages of short-term financial victims. Even with the horribly debilitative braiwashing that Scientology forces its victims to pay for, only a small percentage of their victims become so far gone as to fall into a mindset which would allow themselves to kill themselves or others on order

In the case of the Academy for Psychic Studies, I won't say there is no possibility of a mass suicide or any kind of violent action.  After all, there are members of the Academy who own firearms and they do insist on feeding you special meals.

Think of this: if it is in the best interest of the current leaders to pack up all the available cash and assets of the Academy and steal away into the night (leaving the current hapless membership to fend for themselves) what would the excuse be for that midnight escape?

Certainly they would point to this blog and me as the culprits.  I am sure they would haul out a list of bad guys and enemies to the sorry state of SRF and parade us in effigy in front of whoever is left.

Would that action cause a spiritually revolutionary act?

Maybe.

Because who is left at the spiritual cesspool are the people who have been there the longest (most being there for one or even two decades) and with their entire lives bound and entwined in the SRF way, I would bet there is at least a thought of drinking the Kool-Ade for real.

Think about it: the leaders pack up and run, leaving the members some old buildings and no real income except for their own.  When the last of the deluded followers realize their decades were nothing more than a scam and that we were more right than wrong, you know what they would feel.

And of course, as I wrote a piece called "Psychic Suicide"  the spectre of suicidality is strong at SRF.

You might think I would welcome a Jonestown-like massacre.  I don't.

The followers are good and decent people (well most of them are anyway).  I don't want to see them in that desperate of a situation.

I don't know what to think, actually.  I am sure there is some talk about who they would take with them if they wanted to make their final exit.  I am sure there is a lot of fear of being tossed into the real world if SRF were to implode (as it probably will).  However, I am also sure at least a few will bail out before the Kool-Ade is served.

I just wonder who will drink it and who they plan to eliminate before they do.

Searching for Bill

I can't believe this kid is so beautiful.

I can't believe this is the same kid.

One finger can sure say a lot...

As you guys already know, I keep a web log of readers. One of the things I track is the search terms people use to find the blog.

So what's been searched on lately?

Rev. Bill Duby.

Yup, the maniacal, psychotic founder of the worthless Academy for Psychic Studies.

If you are wondering why, I am too. Maybe the warped and idiotic doctrine of the Right Reverend Bill Duby's Academy is making it's way around the world and the spiritually elite are searching for Bill's writings in their yearning for more gems of wisdom from the master.

Sure.

Can I interest you in a game of Three Card Monty too?

I think it's something similar, but different (if that makes any sense).

What I knew would happen did happen. Since Bill Duby's Academy has become so paranoid they have removed all materials authored by Bill and pretty much eliminated Bill's history from the net and from their own crooked past.

By withdrawing any kind of public message about themselves or Bill, they have lost control of their message and image, leaving it up to third parties like me.

The effect is predictable: Bill's image illustrated on this blog, in "Spiritual Perversion", media reports and all the comments left here isn't exactly like Santa Claus - maybe more like Satan. They might as well have posted his face on a dart board.

With no statement of their own, the Academy and its demented and crooked leaders are allowing the world they fear to shape their image and drive the agenda.

With Bill Duby's checkered past becoming public and the current leaders of the Academy being too stupid to address it, no wonder they are swirling down the drain.

Who do I care about?

So, I get asked frequently, "what the hell are you dong this goddamn blog for?".

Good question.

I'm also told by a few my blog reflects deep-seated emotional issues which must be addressed.  Issues such as anger, resentment and all the things the New-Age nitwits like to point out as the flaws inherent in all but themselves.  Sure, I am pissed I lost more than a decade with a cult.  Wouldn't you?  I lost out on a lot of life. I lost a lot of opportunities that will never present themselves again and I lost out on relationships and social events that will never happen again.

I am sure you all think that makes me a really pissed off son of a bitch.

Well if you do, fine.

If you believe I need to conduct therapy through writing about my own trauma (such as it was) in front of everyone, well what in the hell do you think I have been doing all this goddamn time?

But honestly, my goal is not so much to help myself (although that has been a benefit) my goal is to allow the many of potential followers to see the other side of the Academy for Psychic Studies story and make up their own mind.

While I would like to enter deep thought and reveal a side of myself that is totally unexpected and worthy of an episode of Oprah, or more likely, an ass-kicking on the Maury show, that isn't the purpose of this blog.

I can tell you with all candor I am NOT writing just to hear myself speak.  I wouldn't need to risk the Spiritual Rights Foundation/Academy for Psychic Studies filing a bogus lawsuit (which I defeated in spades) to do that.

And I'm NOT doing this to help anyone remaining at SRF to break that bond of slavery.  Even if they read this blog, there's no way anything I say will help them.  Besides, I have a strict policy to NOT assist or directly enable any current SRF member to leave the cult UNLESS that person comes to me for help.

I can't nor would I help disaffected SRF members to leave the cult.  That takes my role from writer to exit-counselor or rescuer.  I'm not about to go there. 

I am open to speak with anyone who has "made separations" from the Spiritual Rights Foundation cult or is strongly looking at getting his or herself out of there.  We have coffee and donuts at the ready at any time.  I can also help those who need support to find professional help for their mind, body and living needs.

I'm not available to current, former or waffling members of the cult to listen to apologies for SRF behavior or to listen to their fondness for any of the leaders.  I just don't have time for that.  Besides, I have my opinion and I am sticking to it. 

Those who remain and those who are creating defenses for the Witches of Ellsworth Street's behavior (albeit strange, selfish and really weird defenses like "your blog hurts people like me" - just wait a couple of years and you'll see how the Witches of Ellsworth Street can lay down some real hurt) are so unclear in their defense they not only cannot see the error of their ways, they are beyond help.


I think those remaining at the Academy for Psychic Studies have been in it so long and got so deeply involved, they are unable to conduct a normal life outside the context of the cult.  There may be a few exceptions.  But what I can see is a group of people in middle-age and their medicare years who are proceeding on inertia alone still unable to create their own sense of self.  They'll never leave no matter what I say.  And if they do, their minds are so enmeshed in the debris of the Academy dogma, life as a real member of Planet Earth may be impossible and they are at risk to run right back into the clutches of their tormentors.

So, if I'm not writing to help those left. then who am I writing for?

It's those who are looking for a spiritual home.  I'm helping those who can think for themselves.  I am informing those who want to know and chose their own direction; not those who want to get along by going along.

We call came into SRF with wide-eyed wonder.  We never thought there could be a place for us, dedicated to help us, committed to serving us.  All we needed to do was make the donations, take the classes, buy the recordings, buy admission tickets to the retreats, pay the tithes, pay for more classes, pay for more retreats, pay more tithes and on and on and on.

We hoped for all the things SRF promised us:  material prosperity, spiritual enlightenment, superiority of our soul.  We were the elite, learning at the foot of the cosmic master, who in turn, channeled God Himself.

People seeking their own shining star of spirit are searching and hoping for the same.

But there is one thing available to them that we never had the chance to hear:  the other side of the SRF story.

It's easier to hear that story when you have made no ties to SRF of any of the unfortunates who have succumbed to their evil ways.  It's easier to walk away when you haven't even reached the front door.  It's simpler to "cut cords" when there aren't any to cut.

This blog is a service to those who haven't heard OUR side of the story.  It's here to help those who have not become committed or who have not yet made up their minds to find the information they need to make a decision.


This blog serves those who are on the outside looking in.  If they care to know more about the Spiritual Rights Foundation from the perspective of those who have been there, they have the whole picture and the whole story from both sides.  With that information, they can make up their own minds.  Without it, their minds are made up for them - and you know what happens then...

Without the power of the blog and the internet there isn't anything I could have done for them anyway.

Happily, I understand that most people read this blog and take away a deeper understanding of the meaning and purpose of the Spiritual Rights Foundation.  It's great they can learn in a few minutes or hours what we victims discovered only after years of struggle.

But those who are not out are reading this blog.  Many who have been there and departed read as well.  Some ex-members, though, while physically outside the iron fence of SRF are still mentally trapped inside.

They fear everything non-cult like.  They think as they did before.  They still chase the demons to blame for their own troubles.  They still look for the devils to blame for their shortcomings and hail the Witches of Ellsworth Street as saviors, messiahs and anointed messengers of the undisputed holy champion of the world: Bill Duby.

I don't have time for them.

Nor do I have any desire or need to address them.

I have always asked ex-members to come to me if they like but come clean.  Before you read this blog or even attempt to contact me, you need to have a real separation from your cultic experience.  You will likely need professional help to make that transition.  You'll also need to have cut any contact with the cult and with current members. 

That's a tough stance, I know.

But that is the only way this blog can be protected from those who are still trapped in cult thinking and imprisoned in the deception and fear engendered by the Spiritual Rights Foundation.

What could those poor, lost persons possibly do to this blog?

First, they distract those who need to express their outrage from having their own voice.  Second, by standing in the shadows watching us put ourselves on the line, in the public eye, they are reducing this blog and our own participation in our recovery and my mission to inform the public to nothing more than a spectator sport.

They are content to watch those of us working towards normalcy, holding our heads high and standing as tall take the brunt of the attack from the cult while they do as they always had as cult members:  thank heaven it's not them and point a finger of condemnation at us.


It's not them I care about.  In fact, it's not even me I am writing for these days.


The lawsuit the Spiritual Rights Foundation filed against me galvanized me to hone my mission and focus my efforts to one goal:

Inform the public and tell the ex-member's side of the SRF story.

As far as my personal needs go:  thanks for your concern.  However, this blog will continue to be written in the manner and style it has established. 

  

Who's The Fairest Of Them All?

What am I gonna do when the season ends?

Hey if you are seeing this again, give it another read.  I cleaned it up and did some editing.  It's much better this time - honest!

Those of you who like a good scandal ought to like the Great YouTube Comment Scandal.

To refresh your memory, about this time in 2008 the blogs Joy and I have been writing were discovered by a certain person affiliated with the Spiritual Rights Foundation.  Later, Joy began her vlogs on YouTube.

As usual, it spread around like wildfire within the wrought iron gates of SRF and as usual, the young people were put in action to carry out the evil mission and demented messages of the leaders of SRF.

While the SRF youth somehow didn't make an effort to post their parent's and godparent's vile and evil waste products on my blog, they did make an effort to blast Joy's YouTube channel and blog with the kind of hostile, verbose, poorly thought, sophomoric, base and useless commentary you'd hear of in your local inner-city high school.

I am sure they did their masters proud.

They didn't stop online, though.  Several of the youth complained to several adults about things things they believed Joy and I did to them.

Unfortunately, they lied.  None of the transgressions the youth complained of ever happened.

That the supposed incidents were untrue never stopped the youth from acting as the pawns of the leaders of SRF - they acted on orders and spat venom at anyone in their way.

They claimed Joy spewed even more horrible venom causing personal trauma to those disaffected youth, the leaders of SRF and all the warm and nourishing psychotics who reside there.

They claimed Joy was akin to the devil himself - that a statement Joy made on YouTube (which explained the reason for removal of commenters was in response to threats made by the SRF disaffected youth) was a full admission of her vile and cruel nature.

So, it should come as no surprise that the imaginary incidents and the statements that were never made brought the youth of SRF into a weeks-long screaming tantrum.  Those same unfounded and untrue allegations found their way into the merit-less and defeated lawsuit against us.

The Spiritual Rights Foundation held their belief in their own falsehoods so strongly, they compelled two of the young people involved to write legal statements claiming personal trauma and indignation as a defense against my petition to compel SRF to pay my legal costs.

What in hell a rambling and ill-conceived statement from those two youth had to do with a legal issue was beyond anyone.  Especially the judge who was none too pleased to receive it.

The lawsuit brought by SRF complains that comments written by people from SRF on this blog and on Joy's were removed and that SRF commenters and only SRF commerters were banned from Blogger in a deliberate attempt to restrict the free speech rights of the warm and nourishing psychos behind the SRF wrought iron gates.

Unfortunately for SRF, not only does Blogger not allow the banning of any particular individual (making banning utterly impossible), they got it totally wrong (as they usually do).

Besides, all comments left by the SRF disaffected youth as well as comments left by suspected members of SRF have remained on our blogs.  Not a single one - even the most vile, hostile, juvenile and threatening (which I guess, they all are) was ever removed from Blogger.  The claim that only SRF members were excluded from our blogs was not only idiotic, it was at best a distortion. More likely a lie.

Why do I feel this way?  Simple - SRF has blogs of their own.  On Blogger.  They know better.

YouTube was a different story.

There were extraordinarily vile and hostile comments left on Joy's YouTube channel.  Those comments were removed for cause (they incited even more hostile replies and they threatened the personal safety of Joy and other ex-members).  As a result, those commenters were excluded from writing on Joy's YouTube Channel.

Sure, those people were banned and their comments removed.  They were also offered reinstatement if they promise to refrain from the personal threats and attacks they engaged in earlier.

SRF was of course incensed the SRF youth were publicly spanked for behaving like spoiled brats on YouTube and never accepted their own culpability in exploiting their follower's children.  As they always do, the SRF leaders exaggerated and distorted the events.

Those leaders didn't care that the assertions they made were blatantly false and the use of young people and children to carry out the personal whims of the leaders was reprehensible.  They and their attorney had no concern they were distorting and misrepresenting the features of Blogger and the dangerous comments left on YouTube by their own people.

If any outfit should know what Blogger and YouTube can an cannot do it has to be SRF.

So, it made their lawsuit against us appear to me exactly as it was: an attempt to frighten and intimidate Joy, me and all of you into silence.

I knew I had to fight for the basic rights and freedoms of the victims of SRF and for those who may encounter SRF or any other awful cult.  Ultimately, not only was our attorney convinced SRF was conducting an intimidation campaign - not a lawful assertion of legal rights, so did the court.  The court made them pay for their deliberate unlawful action.

Winning was sweet.  Not vengeful, as I made no personal gain other than my lawful assertion of my freedom.

I did force them to pay for my legal defense.  That's not monetary gain, conspiracy-heads.  It's simple fairness under law.

And that crushed the Spiritual Rights Foundation like a cockroach.   It's pretty clear: SRF has a short time left on the planet.

That is fair.

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For your own personal database, here is the response Joy made to the abusers who desecrated her YouTube channel.

Before I get to that, I have to add: my opinion on the whole YouTube comment scandal was to leave all comments on YouTube as they contained the real names and real email addresses of most of the commenters.  I would have given those commenters leave to continue their reign of terror, despite the danger.  It would be a visible public record of threats and it would be one of the best testimonies against joining the Spiritual Rights Foundation and for all that is written in this blog.

As Bill Duby himself said: if you want to blow your own horn, use someone else's lips.  The comments left by Bill's disaffected youth his henchmen and henchwomen were just the lips we needed to support our cause.

Thanks for the inspiration Bill!

To all my subscribers and channel viewers. I have received some threatening comments from my youtube and blog from some disgruntled members or affiliates of the Spiritual Rights Foundation. I felt in fear of my personal safety and decided to stop the flaming remarks in hopes of diffusing the mounting bashing and threats. I have deleted all comments that have yet been posted on this channel to be democratic and from now on I will approve all comments.
joyfaith7771 

I have blocked several people from making comments for various reasons including inciting and flaming. If those viewers would like to be unblocked I would appreciate an email containing; an agreement to make no threats to my husband or I or any ex-SRFs or current SRFr and to please only address topics pertaining to content in video, personal experience and facts that can be instantiated. Thank you all.
joyfaith7771 

I think the SRF-ies are so used to being treated unfairly by their leaders and each other, they can't recognize fairness if it dropped out of the sky and landed on their head.  It's part of their way of being - so much a part that they believe everyone will treat them unfairly and that any request for fairness is interpreted as exploitation.

So when Joy said: "Look guys, stop intimidating people with threats to their safety and stop the abusive language that makes you sound dangerous." those from SRF who engaged in that behavior were outraged at the obvious unfair and unreasonable request to tone things down and act in a civilized (but still passionate) manner.

And when Joy said later: you are banned for now but just promise me you'll not threaten anyone and I will un-ban you, the SRF-ies were even more aggravated at the further affront to their desire to engage in conduct that would result in far more than a mild reprimand anywhere else.

Yet to the Spiritual Rights Foundation, only they hold the keys to fairness - only they are acting within reason and are acting with the true guidance of holy law.

Bill Duby, the psychotic founder of this dysfunctional and worthless organization, was fond of saying "If God be for you, who can be against you?"

Well now - how many are against the Spiritual Rights Foundation?  How many are for it?

How many have left this psychic Bedlam?  How many people are left there?

How many of them really want to be there?   How many still there would like to get out if only they had a way?

Is God for the Spiritual Rights Foundation?

I believe He's not.  In fact, I believe He's the one behind the cult's current decline and troubles.


Gee SRF, I guess that's the real reason no one is for you...

 

The Academy for Psychic Studies is Off The Air

Total Prosperity, the weekly radio show of the Academy for Psychic Studies is now OFF THE AIR!

Whether it is because the hosts lost interest or because it cost one hell of a lot of money to maintain is anyone's guess at this point.  My guess is that they just plain got tired of putting on a radio show once a week.  Well, maybe because no one came in for a $2000 class because of hearing it on the radio.

That doesn't diminish the importance of this news.

Actually, as the show was said to be crappy and uninteresting I am not surprised it shut down.

The Academy for Psychic Studies is based on the philosophies of the Berkeley Psychic Institute, Scientology and other fringe religions.  Not that they were expert in any of them but they used those techniques anyway.  The radio show began as a way for the founder, William (Bill) Duby to espouse his particular spiritual outlook and world view.

After Mr. Duby's death, the show was less focused on spiritual philosophies and was more focused as an infomercial (a really bad infomercial) for classes and services peddled by the Academy for Psychic Studies.

I remember being on the show once or twice.  It was an hour of listening to Bill spew his world view and a moment or two of giving brief psychic readings to callers who never failed to ask about their relationships, work life or family.  There was only very rarely someone who called up and asked a question on-topic.  I guess it was because none of the "hosts" were talented enough to engage listeners in a particular topic.  In fact, their hour of rambling was pretty boring and not at all informative.  Oprah it was not.   Maybe more like a demented Billy Mays.

Anyway, Total Prosperity is now off the air.  Off the air is as it should be.  I will say that archived shows are available on Live365 if you search for Spirit Talk Radio.  They did have Total Prosperity shows featuring Bill Duby on Live365 as well.  I searched for it.  I couldn't find it.  Maybe you can.  If so, let me know.

Lately, the Academy for Psychic Studies has withdrawn many of their public communications.  The web site is stripped down, the newspaper is gone, the blogs are dead, the Facebook page is pathetic and of course, the YouTube vids have been taken down.  Now the last vestige of their public presence is gone as well.  At a time where the Academy should be increasing their public presence and promoting their message, they are hiding down a rabbit hole of their own making.  They are sticking their head in the sand.

They are - crap, they are just too damn scared of the world to have any communication with it.

So tell me, how is it that a group that needs to gain members from the public won't communicate with it?  And why is that such a smart strategy to revive their flagging fortunes?

I would imagine the Academy for Psychic Studies will blame me for the demise of their prized radio show.  Obviously, I have no control over the success or failure of their public messages or their radio show.  Anyone who reads this blog isn't listening - at least not for spiritual enlightenment.  They are listening for a laugh or to find a reason to make fun or them.

And those who do want to listen for personal fulfillment - aw hell, no one is listening for that.  They are all calling in to the toll-free line so they can get a toll-free psychic reading from the Academy psychotics.

While Bill Duby was alive, his mix of Scientology and all the other fringe religions he sort-of, almost understood was somewhat entertaining.  Kind of like listening to your grandmother curse the world as she tries to figure out how to use a BlackBerry.

Bill had a way of talking about spirituality in such an esoteric way, you had to listen just to see what nutty thing he'll come up with next.  I remember he once spoke of all the spiritual reasons Princess Diana had to die.  One of them had to do with some kind of conspiracy within the Royal Family.  Uh, yeah....

As for 9/11, he made the spiritual pronouncement: they're just jealous of what we have and that going after anyone in between us and the terrorists responsible was fine as long as we get Bin Laden.  Ummmm, OK.

That is stuff I won't miss.  I'll also not miss having my stomach lurch every time I heard that damn show.  I guess I won't miss the Billy Mays shilling of all the money-making classes, services and products the Academy for Psychic Studies wants you to buy.

Even though the Academy shills so many of their classes, workshops, retreats, recordings, videos, books and their 900 Psychotic Reading line, very few (probably no one) dropped their hard-earned money for any of that.

During the last ten years, those of us who realized how we were being exploited, cheated and generally taken advantage of turned to the news media, print publications and the internet to tell our stories.  Steve Sanchez wrote a chilling tell-all book on his experience at the Academy.  There were several news articles that told the stories about all the things the Academy for Psychic Studies does not want you to hear.

And there is this blog.  I have to say, there has been a lifetime pageview of over 35,000.  That's pretty good for a blog.

There are so many of us telling our stories here and elsewhere those vibes are travelling all over the world.  Our stories are becoming legend and our experiences are considered as fact.  The number of hits to this blog rose whenever the Academy announces their classes.  The number of students have dropped over the years from a few to nothing.  More and more public rebuke has been thrown at the Academy for Psychic Studies.  More and more, the Academy for Psychic Studies moves closer to irrelevance.

Still, I think my influence isn't enough to crush the late and not at all beloved Total Prosperity.  Thanks to the rambling, confused conversation, the lack of focus, the horrible production values and the fact they have totally misread the desire of the public for their message (if there was one, that is), the hosts of the show seem to have done a fine job of ruining it without anyone's help.

We who have been there saw it every day: the Academy for Psychic Studies' worst enemy is themselves.

So join me in raising a glass to the end of this useless radio show.  I'm having a nice pale ale.

Hot Shots

As there has always been, discontent is simmering below the calm surface of the Spiritual Rights Foundation cesspool.

Even more people want out.  Way out.

So, what's stopping them?

Certainly some have resources and an external support network in the area to ease that transition.  They are strong willed and intelligent people.  They aren't the stereotypical bumbling cult member speaking in terms that can only be described as hallucinatory.

So, if they have everything going for them if they want to leave the cult, why wouldn't they?

Mind Control.

There are many former members of the Spiritual Rights Foundation who can't stand what is written in this blog.  Now, I have proven in Superior Court that there is no untruth here and I have an absolute right to voice the opinions you see here.  But those ex-members don't care.

Bill Duby's relentless and psychotic drive to control the hearts, minds, soul and bodies of his followers instilled so much fear in the SRF Faithful, that even when they separate from his grasp, they are still controlled by fear, consumed with guilt and paralyzed from any action that would help them achieve true freedom.

The overwhelming guilt, the paralyzing fear keeps them away from the information they need to help them.  And that information is right here in this blog. 

Just as those who hate SRF, all it stands for and all it has done to ruin lives and destroy spirits avoid this blog like H1N1, those who wish to leave can neither read this blog nor can they separate from the very thing that has caused their mental and emotional pain.

Bill Duby's grasp of  their soul has extended from his grave directly to the heart of their being.  Bill's deranged mentality, his psychotic vision, his psychopathic disregard for the well being of his followers lives on through the Witches of Ellsworth.  That iron grip on the remaining SRF Faithful, the guilt, the fear, the dire predictions of doom and gloom keeps the victims of the Witches of Ellsworth under the Witch's greedy thumbs.

I suppose that is one reason for holding more trance retreats and keeping whoever is left busy with whatever the perverted leaders can dream up.  Idle hands are the devil's workshop, you know.


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In the cult apartment complex in Berkeley, there is a special unit there reserved for a low-vibration bonehead to live in.  It is a garage converted so a toilet and sink could be located.  No shower or bathing facilities.  Initially, it was intended as an office.  It turned into an apartment.

The low-down a-hole at the bottom of the spiritual ladder had the great honor of being housed there (kind of like the Security Housing Unit at Pelican Bay).  I know this.  I lived there.

After I escaped, another guy was placed there.  He suffered years of abuse there and just recently got out by the skin of his teeth.

So, it is allegedly being re-purposed as an office.  Who knows for what business.  There aren't many left at SRF.  And the ones remaining are under the greedy thumbs of Angela Silva and Robin Dumolin.

I think they just wanted the guy living there out of the way.  They always hated him but kept him anyway.  Why?  He was a great scapegoat.  People would jump all over him, making him the personification of all the things they hated about themselves.

I watched in amazement and disgust (mostly disgust) as these spiritually enlightened and morally upright ministers of the SRF Cult proceeded to harass, demean and otherwise abuse this guy with insults about his appearance, intellect, career skills and perceived lack of spiritual "vibration" from dawn to, well, the next dawn.

Now that he's out of the SRF landfill, I wonder who they will turn to when they want to express their disgust for someone?  Each other?  Let's hope so.

Because as this spiritual cesspool continues to swirl down the drain of irrelevance, as its membership dwindles closer and closer to nothing, the number of available scapegoats become fewer and fewer.

In just the last two years - the two years since the Witches were clobbered with a landmark legal decision against them, so many of the deflated and weary faithful few have taken flight from the compound behind the wrought iron fence of the Academy for Psychic Studies, the place looks less like a deranged spiritual kindergarten from hell and more like the morgue in an insane asylum.

The remaining faithful are, by and large, old and older.  All but one of those on the short side of middle-age have taken the off-ramp to a better life.  The rest are just too weary, too set in their ways and just plain too beaten down to re-start the life they should have had before their cult involvement.

2/3/11

January is Spiritual Abuse Awareness Month

I 'd like everyone to help with Spiritual Abuse Awareness Month by displaying the picture below on your blog, your friend's blog - hell even the blog of your favorite cult!

Let's start letting the world know that we will remember the deep and lasting effects of Spiritual Abuse on the thousands, perhaps millions who have experienced that trauma.

The below came from a great blog at: http://www.spiritualabuseawareness.com
Go there and take a look at it.  It's not as long-winded as I am but there is great information there. It's well worth a read and I recommend that you do just that.

As Seen on Spiritual Abuse Awareness:

Raise Awareness

We want to help raise awareness for Spiritual Abuse and have chosen January as our awareness month, but we feel it is such an important topic that we work all year long in raising awareness.

We are working on pamphlets that you can download and print to give to your loved ones and churches. Not all pastors are opposed to raising awareness and they may be interested in learning more and offering support groups for your community. (*Note: If your pastor is opposed to talking about Spiritual Abuse with your church, that can be a red flag and you may want to consider getting help.)


We are working on ordering awareness ribbons and wristbands as well. Stay tuned for more information on this.

Thanks for posting this button on your blogs.  It will be a great way to bring the issue of Spiritual Abuse to light.

The Milgram Experiment

Why do good people do bad things?

In the 1950's Stanley Milgram, a social psychologist in Connecticut, tried to answer that question.

He set up an experiment where two people would participate in a learning experiment. A researcher took the two participants into a room where a big, imposing shock machine was mounted next to a booth. One participant would enter the room as the "learner" and the other would sit at the shock machine as the "teacher".

The "teacher" would give some simple quizzes to the "learner". If the answer was correct, the next quiz was given. If the answer was wrong, the "teacher" would apply an electric shock. Each wrong answer would bring a more powerful shock - from 40 volts up to 750 volts.

Ouch.

The upshot was that the "learner" was an actor and the shock machine was a prop. No actual shock was applied.

The actor would make a few correct answers, then would deliberately blow the rest. Each time, the "teacher" applied a shock.

To the horror of Milgram, most people kept applying more and more powerful shocks. One actor said he had a heart condition. He would start to scream from the pain of the shock then showed obvious distress. The "teachers" kept shocking him anyway, even after the actor appeared to have passed out.

What the hell?

It turned out that when the "teacher" showed some hesitation to apply a shock, the researcher told him to continue. The "teacher" was also told that the researcher would assume responsibility for anything that happened, including the apparent unconsciousness from electric shock.

Milgram finally figured out that if a person can point to an authority figure for responsibility, he can justify any kind of action - even one that clearly causes harm.

He even tried to use two "teachers". He found that that one would frequently tell the other to keep going, even if the shocks were becoming dangerous because they were told to do so by a man in a lab coat. And strangely, women were actually more likely to keep giving more and more dangerous shocks than men.

Are things different now? That experiment was repeated at Santa Clara University just a few years ago. The results were exactly the same. Some people (men and women) even kept shocking even after the learner appeared to pass out.


So what the hell does this have to do with the Spiritual Rights Foundation?

Think about all the crazy behavior between genders there. Think about the mental torture, abuse and exploitation that went on there. Now think about why no one spoke out against that behavior.

Fear maybe? Nope. More like: get along by going along. Peer pressure and the fact that insane, abusive and even dangerous behavior was sanctioned by the church leadership should be enough to tell you why.

Steve Sanchez's story is just one of the many horrors that occurred there. Many other men and women were subjected to disdain, verbal punishment, isolation, and abuse at the hands of SRF. I remember clearly watching men being insulted, threatened and deceived in the name of "healing". Some of these "healing" sessions were so intense with anger and hate that I got scared just watching. I was relieved that I was not the target and like everyone else, somehow perversely delighted to see someone else take a turn as the SRF punching bag.

The members would certainly avoid and talk poorly about those at a "lower vibration" and would do anything to those persons that was sanctioned by the church. They did it to please the leadership and show their devotion to the church to other members.  What was strange and incongruent was your past loyalty and devotion to the leaders provided no relief or mercy when the leader's anger and frustration inevitably turned to you.

When the leaders turned on you, the rest of the membership turned on you like a pack of wolves.  No men in white coats were required to guide you into abuse - these authorities wore minister's robes.

It's a common theme from ex-members of SRF: when they were on the outs with the leadership, they were on the outs with the membership.  Of course, the leaders never acted to temper any wrath the members applied to a wayward colleague.  If a lynching were the order or the day, I believe it would be conducted.  Several male members of SRF expressed their skill at getting "rid of the body where it would never be found".

And I'm sure that if there was a real shock machine, those same people will hand out real shocks.

In the name of Jesus, of course.

Get Real: Get Angry

That's W saying "we're number one!"

I found something interesting that the Dalai Lama said in his interview with TIME Magazine:

Q: Do you ever feel angry or outraged? —Kantesh Guttal, PUNE, INDIA

Dalai Lama: Oh, yes, of course. I'm a human being. Generally speaking, if a human being never shows anger, then I think something's wrong. He's not right in the brain. [Laughs.]



As you know, there are many, many people who say you cannot express anger nor can you be angry. Generally, those are the people who are involved in the new age psychic-spiritual garbage that trapped us.

Anger is one of the full spectrum of emotions we all have as normal members of the human society. You must feel anger if you claim to be a member.

I do agree, though, that to do certain things, you must put your anger aside for a practical purpose: if you conduct those tasks in anger, you will not make any sense or you will do something completely stupid.

I've done things in anger as we all have. And I have screwed up in those situations as we all have.

But one of the things we all must do to vent our anger (even the anger that happened in the past) is to express it in a manner that allows the anger to disperse without harm.

Writing is the best way for us and everyone else. If those we complain of become embarrassed about our outrage, that is unfortunate but not of any legal harm. I proved that in the United States Legal System.

Our right to speak and our need to express the outrage, embarrassment and yes, even anger is protected by the Constitution of the United States of America.  Our need to speak is supported by the law, God and all that is good and proper.

I am glad we can use a blog to talk about what happened. As most of us do, I don't write from anger but I do write because I must disperse the pent-up anger the cult never allowed us to vent.

For those of you who think we anti-SRF bloggers are angry and bitter people, all I can tell you is you is you certainly can't tell what emotions run through us because you do not know us.

But you have to believe as the Dalai Lama does: to not have "negative" emotions like anger, frustration, fear, doubt and more is to deny your human nature and the humanity of those around you.


And by extension, you are not right in the head.


Hey, don't complain to me.  Bring it up with the Dalai Lama.