The Purpose Driven Cult

I would have loved to have thought this one up, but I have to admit it wasn't me who wrote it.  In fact, as it was left by "Anonymous", I have no clue as to who wrote it.  So don't ask, you idiot SRF troll - you can tell your mistress mothers you couldn't get me to talk.


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Anonymous said...

THE PURPOSE DRIVEN CULT!

Step by step instructions:

1. Hear about it through advertisement or word of mouth.

2. Get bombarded by friendly, warm smiles and repeated acknowledgement of your spiritual gifts.

3. Get a free healing, and afterwards, sign up to get a psychic reading....If you're lucky, you'll get a staff member..oh wait, thats all they have left. NO STUDENTS ARE LEFT!

4. Get recruited to take a beginning class, and watch the staff go into overdrive to keep you in their sights to continue taking more of them.

5. Take the plunge and go on a church retreat as their guest. (Watch the love bombing that entire weekend and soon you'll feel safe and a sense of you found people who you feel truly know you)

6. Get ready to get your soul energy back as the leaders would say, and sign up for the Clairvoyant training class. (Watch how your interest in everything outside of this hell hole starts to lose its appeal)

7. More classes and retreats are offered and with a little bit of arm twisting, you are prodded into taking them. They tell you how relaxed you look and the changes in your appearance from when you first walked through the door. They even laugh at all of your jokes in such a validating manner, you begin to open yourself up even more.

8. They ask that you come to church service to improve your spiritual awareness, an inner understanding and true meaning of the bible, and stay in the positive energy that had you once shy away from going to a church service.

9. Introduce you to psychic reading fairs, in house reading promotions to the public and generally fill up your time with the days or nights you need to participate in psychic readings. And eventually, you'll get to read from the "Center Chair" position!

10. Finally: You are told you are ready to graduate and you have a choice: (After 5 to 10 years as a student, though its called the YEAR CLASS as in singular) Graduate and do a short stint as a reader or become a full fledge minister within the organization and spend endless years like a bad addiction wondering where all your time, energy and money went when sobering up to the truth of how your life was spent kissing the ass of the Witches of Ellsworth street.

PS: Stop all the future madness by leaving after the first healing and or reading....The best advice I can give you.

March 31, 2010 7:30 AM

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I guess all I can add to this is: when you are asked if you would like a healing or if you would like to dump good money on a bad psychic reading, do like Nancy Reagan and just say no.

A Rose is Still Just a Rose.

Here's a re-post from Psychdoctorate's fabulous blog:  berkeleypsychiccult.blogspot.com

The Rose - Psychic Protection or ?????

Someone just recently made a comment on one my blogs and asked me to elucidate on the rose.

First before looking into it, I would like to ask a question. Not of the poster but in general. Why would we need to have a symbol to protect ourselves from other peoples energy?

First and foremost, the concept of "energy" especially a spiritual one is pure pseudoscience. I firmly do not accept the idea that there is an "energy" behind anything that drives us. Oh, I am not saying there is no such thing as energy, there quite clearly is, but the abstract concept of "energy" besmacks highly of delusional thought. Some faiths express the belief that their is energy behind all reality in one form or another, but that is a belief, and not something we can prove or even disprove. I will do another post later on the appeal to ignorance. This is not the place for it.

In the insitute, the rose was used for two thing besides being read. Those two things are Separation and Protection. Separation as defined by the institute was, the end of your space. It was not defined by any means using normal concepts of boundaries. The rose would define the edge of your aura. You had to put the image up and place it out there. Seems innocent enough, or is it?

In many cases the rose was simply being used to tell people that they were not staying in their spaces and that they were putting energy into yours. Once again we go back to the psuedoscience concept of energy. In the situation at the institute and other places, they are taking this energy concept to a litteral degree. Lets look at this from a perspective of manipulation.

Ok, you have a grievance with someone. Say a coworker, they have been grating you for some time with their behavior. You are angry and upset and its building. It could be said from the "energy" perspective that their energy is in your space. But lets move forward. You confront your coworker in a polite and diplomatic way. You express your hurt and frustration say over something they keep saying to you. Lets say they kept saying "Oh what beautiful hair you have!" Day in and day out! Well in all due respect this is now becoming a form of harassment. They are being sarcastic and cruel. You say to them that it feels like they are being a bit sarcastic. Their response is to go into an assassination of character and say back to you "You don't know how to take a compliment you are completely over reacting and you are showing me that you are disrespecting me!" They have twisted the tables on you and are trying to make you feel guilty for confronting them. This is called "emotional blackmail." Now lets move back to the Rose perspective.

You are talking to someone and you are upset at things they said to you. In the institute or other places like SRF you would be told by the higher ups that "YOu were putting your energy in their space!" You were not staying behind your rose and in your own space. A complete twist of facts and a way of taking no responsibility for their behavior. And they are then saying that you are the cause of the problem, not them!

Sounds pretty similar to the incident with a coworker, emotional blackmail!

Along similar lines, they staff could say to you "Put up your rose and get into the center of your head" before a lecture or whatever. Right afterwards, they might go into a verbal tirade and or let you have it. If you reacted in some way, the rationale was, you were not being neutral or that your rose was not absorbing energy. It was a way for the staff to bash you without taking responsibility for how their behavior influences or effects others. So if you were feeling like you were being bashed, the guilt trip was already in place. Yep, you created that experience rather than saying, that the other individuals behavior effected you so deeply.

In psychological terms, the aforementioned could be described as a rationalization and a minimalization. You see, manipulators like to keep their victims off balance. Yes they sure do! Like to lay the guilt trip on you. How dare you say something about me and my behavior? You must be projecting! Oh, sounds more and more like manipulation all the time. I think people get the picture on this now.

However there is one thing which I think the rose was especially designed for. And that was to keep you from putting your attention on what is going on in front of you. If you have been conditioned to put up a rose first, if you were being confronted by someone, cult or not, your first reaction is to "put up a rose" there fore taking your attention off of what’s going on in front of you! Yep a switch and bait tactic you have been conditioned to do. So if someone like


this lady (ahem, cough, cough, cough, hack, pardon me had to hold back the gag reflex, nearly choked there calling this woman a lady) Tells you

SELL THE GODDAMNED HOUSE!

After telling you to put up a rose, you gotta start thinking. Am I being manipulated here or am I truly dealing with a honest, loving, compassionate, spiritual (wretch, barf, gag, ok there just went breakfast, gotta clean up the floor now!)

So the rose is a tool of emotional manipulation or blackmail and or a tool to get you to take your attention off of what is going on in front of you!

Regards;

Jeffrey

Posted by PsychDoctorate at 6:26 AM 

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi, Jeff,

Happy New Year!

M.T. in seminars: put something (problem, fear) into the rose and then explode the rose. Can you tell me what that's about?

Ex-Sci

January 3, 2010 1:29 PM 

Mike Kawahara said...

When this woman told me to "Sell the Goddamn House!" she ambushed me during my "house control" shift at the Spiritual Rights Foundation HQ. As the House Control lackey, I was required to "keep up a rose" at all times.

Unfortunately for Angela, I forgot about the rose thing. My bad...

That was the seminal event that started my separation from this dysfunctional and worthless organization.

Joy didn't believe Angela would have said what she did. So one day after our "church" service, Joy cornered Angela and asked the fateful question: "Did you tell Mike to 'sell the goddamn house', the one I just moved into?"

After a moment to compose herself, Angela said "Yes I did."

Unfortunately, Joy forgot about keeping a rose up in front of her and did a slow burn while Angela tried to explain herself away. I'm sure Joy regrets her error.

Those incidents really needed a rose to keep Joy and I in the mind control Angela needed. Too bad Angela was too consumed with substance abuse to learn the techniques of mind control from Bill Duby.

And ironically, we used the technique of "asking the rose" for an answer to a question to determine if Angela was operating in our best interest or in furtherance of her own greed.

The answer I got from the rose was just one inspiration for a revealing article in my blog (in fact, it was an inspiration for my entire blog) and the "goddamn house" is still mine - even after Angela tried to get it through a failed lawsuit.

How about that? I found a use for the rose Angela never expected: to expose her for who she really is.

Thanks for teaching me about the rose, Angela!

January 7, 2010 12:01 AM 

Anonymous said...

They got me for an inheritance twice. Sorry I thought so highly of her and the other woman who can freeze you with her personality.

 And there is always the woman they use as a spy to keep track of people, who happens to be the bishop of the church. 

God I wish I had all that money back I dumped in there for years! I would be wealthy right now! Instead they are, though I doubt they let the remaining members know of their socking away everyones donations for their future shopping trips, vacations, and overall retirement fund they've set up for themselves and their offspring. 

Can't wait for the place to close, though it will be a sad day for those who've hypnotised themselves in believing there is no other place to go...Very sad!

January 12, 2010 5:17 PM

Anonymous said...

I was another victim of the con. They are never responsible for what they do but are always there to spend the money from thier cons. 

When it finally gets too hot for them a moving van will pull up to Ellsworth at midnight and they will be gone the next morning. The poor culties will take months to realize what has happened.

January 15, 2010 3:29 PM

The Academy for Psychic Studies - Duby vs. Hubbard

 I guess she's saying "I only ate one bucket of KFC for lunch - asshole."

I ran into the below comment on Psychdoctorate's YouTube channel:

·         I was involved with the Spiritual Rights Foundation years ago when I was far more naive, though not involved as deeply as those training to be 'reverends'. I remember a plaque on the wall dedicated by Rev. Bill to several of his "teachers", the only names of which I remember were Gene Scott, Lewis Bostwick, and L. Ron Hubbard.
cryptsub

I remember seeing that same damn plaque!  I also remember after one of the psychotic's more intense classes where we were all in a somnambulant post-mind-control state, he said with his usual glib delivery "You guys didn't know you were learning Scientology, did you?"

So, what's so damn similar between Scientology and the Academy for Psychic Studies?

Well, as I haven't set foot in a Scientology den and I haven't taken a single Scientology class, I have to rely on what others tell me.  Here's a few of them:



From YouTube:

·         BPI/SRF's "spirits" must have been based on body thetans!
cryptsub

 ·         In BPI/SRF there were a series of beings known as "snakes" and "spiders" which were the foundation of all mankinds pain and suffering. In reality, these are the two most common halucinations one will see. I have seen them and I will tell you it can be frightening. But they do not look like real snakes or spiders, on amorphous things which seem to move around like the.
PsychDoctorate

From what I've been seeing online:
Hubbard taught his students to "mock up" (he really did use the term mock up).  A mock up was a wack term for using your imagination to visualize an idea or describe your wants and desires in words or pictures.  

How many mock ups did we have to engage in during our imprisonment at the Spiritual Rights Foundation?  How many of them were for the advancement of the Witches' cause or for the cause of the psychotic founder?  How many of their mock ups came to be?  How many of yours?  Be truthful, now.  How many of your mock ups came true really.

Hubbard taught that using a "Thetan Hand" to slice through "foreign beings" or other imaginary entities would eliminate the "connection" or "cord" entangling you to a being that is not for your greater good.

Weren't we taught to use our psychic hand to "cut cords"?  What was the purpose of those cords?  Who were those cords connected to?  Maybe we had cords to loved ones, good friends, spouses, children.  Weren't we all encouraged to "cut the cord"?  Maybe that was a way to displace the people in our lives who really matter with a madman and his Witches?
Hubbard taught an "auditing" session where an "auditor" using a device called an e-meter to gauge responses to certain provocative questions would help his followers to become "clear" or without undue emotional responses.

So, would you like a psychic reading SRF-style?  SRF had no e-meters but there were the overweight guys who waved their hands in the air.  Whenever the cult perceived we were slipping from their grasp or were in need of special psychotic punishment, a psychotic reading from one of the expert psychotics was prescribed.  Of course, as the victim, you were expected to be neutral and stay in your space while you were insulted, degraded, demeaned and dehumanized from all the nasty and awful things the psychotic reader said to you.

I am damn sure I saw that Scientology plaque on the wall and later where excess crap was stored.  Does anyone else remember it?

Does anyone else remember hearing after enduring one of Bill Duby's all-night sessions of garbage and psychotic hallucinations "You guys didn't know you were learning Scientology, did you?"

I recall just that.  There just has to be a connection between the Spiritual Rights Foundation and Scientology.  I'll bet the deranged psychotic Reverend William Duby somehow got his hands on basic Scientology doctrine and decided he would use a perverted version of it to instill control and submission among his followers. Anyone else like to throw in their two cents?

Anyone?  Anyone?  Bueller?  Bueller?

  

Family Last

Winnie Cooper - Math Genius (though I never really noticed)

Originally Posted 7/15/09


I just had one of the best nights ever. My wife had a huge spa and game party at our house with all her female friends. My sister in law attended and brought along our 14 year old niece. My niece is obviously not one to look forward to an evening of mud facials and charades with women (GASP!) her MOTHER'S age. So, she decided to spend the evening with me.

It was great. I was thrilled to eat a dinner that was not exactly what I wanted because I got to have it with her. FYI, it was Taco Bell. But it seemed like Chez Panisse to me.

I took her to Blockbuster and let her choose two movies I would never have thought of watching. But I was eager to watch them because I would see them with her.

And the thrill in my heart when she called out (while making popcorn), "don't start the movies without me!" was more than I can describe.

All you parents out there (especially you dads) know exactly what I'm talking about. Every time I think about that night, I'm the happiest guy in the world.

But something crept into my consciousness. Something that turned my mood from ecstasy to sorrow.

It's the story of the dads I knew at the Spiritual Rights Foundation - the dads who never had the chance to experience the kind of joy I shared with my niece.

Members of the Spiritual Rights Foundation were encouraged to have children. In fact, the arrival of a child was celebrated. That seemed well and good at the time. It actually was one of the things that attracted many of us to SRF.

These dads also thought that was well and good. They thought having children was what SRF and their God wanted. And at first, it seemed they were correct.

After the baby arrived, it didn't talk long before the nights, weekends, holidays and every other available moment of every SRF dad began to fill with "love projects", ministerial duties, meetings, classes, construction projects, destruction projects, and any other kind of activity the leaders of the Spiritual Rights Foundation could imagine.

The parents - the dads especially, got no more than a whisper of time with their children. Nearly nothing. No evenings at Taco Bell with Blockbuster movies. Not much of anything at all. I saw kids on their own most of the time. Some of them were not only playing without parents nearby but some were without parental support. While the Spiritual Rights Foundation and its leaders kept the parents busy with tasks for the benefit of SRF, there were kids on their own to feed and clothe themselves. I've fed some of those kids after discovering they missed meals. And after seeing some of them working at the SRF farm in winter without warm clothes and dry shoes, I dug into my pocket to buy them parkas and boots.

What's worse, while couples conceiving children was encouraged at SRF, having a relationship with your own children was not.

The relentless, psychotic drive to serve the church and its leaders always took first place in the lives of the followers. It didn't matter if you had a family - your life was the leader's life. If you dared pay a small amount of attention to your family and your child, the consequences could be dire.

This excerpt from Steve Sanchez's book, "Spiritual Perversion" illustrates my point:

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One night I insisted we go as a family to the movies together. It took us a week and a half to find a night that we could both go. We went to the movies and had a good time. Afterward I felt a little high, that maybe things were going to go my way now, and maybe we would even have sex for the first time in a long time.

When we got home ******* called and said I had missed [church] band practice. She was angry. I had forgotten we were supposed to have band practice that night [at SRF headquarters]. She told Ang, and Ang told Rev. Bill, and the next day I paid the consequences.

Ang called [my wife] and drilled her on what I had done. Then Rev. Bill talked to her. It was clear things were looking very, very bad for me. I got that horrible, devastating feeling of searing fear and worthlessness in my gut. I couldn’t believe they were overreacting to everything like this. It was all so insane. [my wife] came out of all this it clean. They blamed me. Rev. Bill told [my wife] I had soul sickness, and that I was putting my dick before the beginning students.

When I was preparing to go to Santa Clara she told me not to go. She said Rev. Bill said I was taken off Santa Clara as the Director because they couldn’t trust me with the beginning students. Now I was useless and had nothing to do. Rev. Bill told [my wife], “I told you so. You can’t trust men. I try and to set you up in the an apartment together, and his ego immediately goes out of control trying to get his dick wet.”

After being pounded by Rev. Bill, [my wife] told me she was kicking me out of the apartment until I got my head straight. I told her that she she couldn’t do that to me, that things were just starting to get better. But she was like a stone. She wouldn’t budge. I was told to go live in the mobile home on Russell Street. I had gone from prestige to hell- like that. Out of nowhere. The misery and devastation of this was intolerable. I don’t know how I withstood it; I just floated through the pain. The thought of leaving remotely occurred to me, but this place was my whole life. I was tied into it by everything— my marriage, my job, my friends, my church, my teacher, my daughter. It was most crushing to me that my daughter saw me this way and that I would be living away from her again. We had lived there together for just two months.
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That was Steve's consequence for putting his family first. No one but a crazed, psychotic lunatic would have gone to those lengths to punish a man for daring to maintain his family's integrity. And Steve's story is not unique. I've seen other parents given task after task and responsibility after responsibility and project after project with no regard to giving time for them to raise their children. In fact, the children were often brought to the Spiritual Rights Foundation headquarters and dumped in an empty room alone or left to run wild on the premises while their parents were gathered together and led deep into a beneficial and positive guided trance state or engaged in a task for the benefit of the cult

Later, as the children grew, they were left an hour away working on the farm at Bethel Island while their parents were busy at SRF headquarters in Berkeley.

But those children did receive attention. Certainly not much from the parents (especially the fathers). So if not from the parents, who?

We often heard from Rev. Bill Duby that his role was to "father us from above". And "father" he did.

Bill seemed to surround himself with the children of his followers. Whenever he had the opportunity, he'd do something with "the kids". Although Bill had a child of his own, he never considered the children of his followers to be merely his daughter's playmates. After watching him with his follower's children I knew: he insinuated himself as the "father" of his follower's children and worked diligently to replace their real fathers by speaking often of how the real fathers were not "real" fathers and how "real" his "fathering" was.

The behavior became sickening. Bill would take the children to carnivals and fairs while their parents would toil away at cult projects or activities. Every Halloween, Bill would gather the children for a hearty round of trick-or-treating while the fathers were directed to teach classes, perform manual labor or do some other work for the cult. And while his followers slaved promoting Bill's agenda, he would speak ill of them to the children. The relationship between the fathers and their children became so strained because of that, at night, the kids would ignore their fathers and run to give Bill a goodnight hug.

Disgusting.

At any rate, why one would deliberately and methodically insert himself into the relationship between father and child is just too sick to ponder.

But now Bill is dead, is the insertion of SRF leadership into the family unit a thing of the past?

When an ex-member announced their intention to leave the cult and begin a new life of their own it was said the leadership replied the departure would be allowed on one condition: the soon-to-be-ex-member's child must be delivered to SRF headquarters immediately when summoned. I won't say why. It's disgusting enough to know a child would be used as chattel, depersonalized to the level of a poker chip.

I have heard a tale of a young couple with a young child - a toddler. While the mother is summoned to her weekly (and never-ending) class, the little toddler is whisked away to the leader's residence and kept there until the mother is finished with her class. What happens there is anyone's guess. One observation is Bill's daughter (now an adult) "plays" with the little toddler. You may have noticed the word "babysit" was not used. I didn't hear the word "babysit" either. I heard from other ex-members the word "plays". While I'm sure I would not just give up MY child, given what I have seen happen, I would have to wonder why anyone would just leave a toddler with a child who grew up to be no more than a child.

I mean, how many of us would have just dropped our kids off with Michael Jackson?

It also seems likely the leaders of the Spiritual Rights Foundation are developing a "relationship" and are "bonding" with the child. For what purposes is not clear. But if history is any example, someone may be "mothering from above" just like a certain dead preacher.

I remember one girl who's father was involved in a custody case. For the years before this child's plight was brought to family court, Robin Dumolin spent time with her. A lot of time. So much, Robin was heard to say "I am ******'s spiritual mother." During a hearing to determine custody, Robin appeared unnanounced and un-called for. She arrived to support the child in the hope of pursuading the court to deny any contact with her father. Robin's reason? She didn't have one. At least not a legal reason. Robin just didn't want to give up her time so the child could be with her father.

The father did absolutely nothing to endanger his daughter. Ever. There was just no legal reason to deny him a relationship with his own child. But in the vast wasteland of Robin's mind, this father had no right to be a father if that right kept Robin from doing every thing possible to push a father out of his daughter's life.

Robin announced to the cult members gathered at family court she was more of a mother to this girl than either parent was a parent. Then entered the courtroom with the rest of the SRF lynch mob to conduct energy techniques via hand waves and gestures intended to influence the judge. The judge had them thrown out.

You tell me if the crazy cycle of insertion and replacement started by Rev. Bill Duby is continuing.

Well, I can tell you from my observations at the Spiritual Rights Foundation: if I had kids while I was at SRF, I could kiss them. Once. Kiss them goodbye. Goodbye forever.

And that thought, those tales of lost children and heartbroken parents made that one night with my niece all the more special.

Stuck in Neutral

I lifted one of Joy's posts because it's a really good one and I'm too damn tired to come up with my own anyway.

It's worth reading.  The post is all about the concept of "neutrality".  What in hell is it?  How is it used?  OK, so I can figure out how it is used.  But What Does It Mean?  Especially to you.

Please feel free to comment on your own impression of "neutrality" and how the concept was employed with you.


we now return to your regularly scheduled programming....


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Hear is a Question for you. Please comment.

I have always been confused about what the Academy doctrine of the word NEUTRALITY meant. I understand the meaning of the word but the Academy way of acting neutral somehow eluded me...to a certain extent that I could never put my finger on.

There always seemed to be something people weren't saying but we were doing it!

Anyone understand what I am saying?

If any one can enlighten me on this, or even a guess of what it could be, that would be great.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

In the academy to be nuetral meant to dissociate from your true feelings and see yourself as above those you are dealing with.

The reason it manifested this way is because they wanted to deflect members from their natural instinct of self-protection - even while that member was being treated abusiveley. So to be nuetral in the academy really meant to deny your healthy anger and other emotions.

This is a subtle and sinister mind control technique. The effect of this is that those who undergo it have a constant underlying rage that they cannot recognize; and when it did peek through, Bill or the other leaders pounsed on it as proof that there was something terribly wrong with that member.

The member was then publicly shamed in front of everyone, which imbeded self condemnation and created a viscious cycle in that person. This is why some of the kids from SRF and others who comment in this blog write the way they do - When triggered their emotions have one note to play, and that note is fueled by rage. The live on that plain adn can't really see anything else.

This is why what Bill did is so dangerous, becuase if this viscious cycle becomes cronic it can suck your soul away. In other words if you really begin to enjoy being in rage and feeling superior to others you are in trouble.

This is also why it is so hard and painful to leave, becuase we have to deal with the rage that has been trapped within us by the mind control, and even worse, we have to unravel the toxic shame and self condemnation that became habituated.

All of us who have left know this is true in own varying ways. Those who are in the academy have not become willing to face it. This is why everything they do and say is pretty predictable. They are pretending to be nuetral while they are really n rage, and the only alternative to feeling the pain is to insulate themselves in superiority (as Debi does in her sermon), or to rage righteously (as debi does in her sermon). It is a monotonous way to live.

Bill was a rage-aholic, and had no conscience about the levels of psychological cruelty he would subject people to. The higher people go up in the acadmey, the deeper they are in the trap Bill set. I hope that Dave reads this. Becuase if we begin to understand some of this together, we understand, as I know Mike and Joy do, that we need to have compassion for ourselves, and each other, for the rage and anger we feel. We need to keep on getting the anger out, and define the injustice we suffered to deeply, but not get stuck in that one plain.

Dave, I ask your forgiveness for the ways I hurt you in the cult, and for my part, I forgive you for anything you did to me. We don't have to be like we were in the academy. Mike and Joy are good people and, if I am not mistaken are ready to forgive. It is possible to feel compassion for the people in the academy, like Mike and Joy do towards the kids, because at least we can identify the source of the rage, but they are still entrapped in bill's web. It is also good, when one feels up to it, to sort out our thoughts and feelings about the Lord (or any other form of religion one may embrace; I understand Mike has a deep and wonderful love for buddhism and Christ). For me this became an essential part of my on going recovery. kind regards, Steve Sanchez

March 8, 2009 3:42 AM

PsychDoctorate said...

I cant add much more than what Steve said here. Essentialy, those who put into practice Neutrality as a technique, be they Spiritual Rights Foundation memmbers, Berkeley Psychic Institute members or Scientologists (I don't know what term they use for this) are told DONT REACT! supress your feelings and pretend like it has no effect on you! After all it is just foreign energy in your space, and not your own feelings.

In many workplaces, we need to utilize Neutrality towards those we serve. If we do not, we can loose our jobs! However, when we have the chance to talk about our feelings with our collegues about the interaction, we can vent our feelings instead of being non-reactive and stuff all of it down.

However, in the aforementioned circumstance, we choose to be neutral rather than react. In this circumstance it is useful. At the place I work, I was confronted with a raging guest. In this circumstance, I had to not react. I had to deal with the problem and attempt to resolve it in a timely fashion. If I had been defensive, angry or reacted in any other way, I would only have made the situation worse. So I put my feelings asside for a short period of time and dealt with the situation. Later on I was thankfully able to vent and get it off my chest.

If we attempted to vent at the Berkeley Psychic Institute, we were told we were not being neutral and that we needed to ground the energy out of our spaces. Lots of invalidation.

March 9, 2009 12:44 AM

Joy Butler said...

Thanks for the comments you guys. I was aware that there was a strong encouragement of divorce from ones feelings at the Academy but never related it to an affect of being neutral.

March 9, 2009 6:27 AM

Joy Butler said...

Furthermore I always felt that there was something off with what this neutrality meant. We were given so many contradictory commands of how to feel.

The women and men were told that they needed to vent but then we were discouraged from opening up and talking about sensitive issues. We were allowed to in readings to a certain extant but it became business like and the reader generally had an air of authority and control of; how much you could say (One was often interrupted when asking a question and told that is enough, they have a picture of what is going on and they don’t need any input from you anymore.

This is so absurd and arrogant to me now.), two the reader became the expert of your experience and what you were really feeling, three there was a sense of being in debt to the reader because through their insight into your soul and their healing work you were suppose to be all better, healed when most of the time nothing had really changed.

Through this whole process you were told the reader can see what you can’t see and if you doubt what the reader is saying then you or an energy or spirit inside of you is being invalidating to the reader. To invalidate the reader was to invalidate the teaching, the concepts, your teachers, your fellow students. What a bind to be in?

So during readings, during rants from the fellow ministers and not just Rev. Bill we had to be neutral, not react to what they were saying, accept what was being told to us and about us even if it was not true. I and everyone I knew and know at the Spiritual Rights Foundation have been intensely cut off from as Steve put it, “natural instinct of self-protection”.

Jeffrey I hear what you said about being neutral at work and that there is a reason for this. Actually what brought up this question was in one of my classes, my teacher was lecturing on how counselors need to be neutral. I understood what she meant but then the Academys definition and action interrupted my thoughts which was upsetting to me. And I wanted to gain greater clarity and differentiate the two different definitions in my mind.

I recognize that even now I fall into the trap of trying to be neutral which causes me to not say what I need to say or feel in the moment. I have to consciously try to tap into my feeling and thoughts because I have been trained to repress so much and hold it in till I get a reading. This is a trained reflex. But there is no way I am getting a reading so how do I deal with these feelings?

I have to work on being aware of what is going on inside me and I have to sometimes force myself to open up to people and take a chance of being vulnerable. I understand what you are saying Steve about being in rage. The feelings, the repressions build and build. I have felt many times like there is a volcano inside of me ready to erupt. The Academy did more damage to me and most others that were there for more than a couple years than we give credit to.

I know I am still fighting the commands inside of my brain from various teachers there to be neutral when I know better. There is one experience that keeps on tugging at my coinsiousness as I am writing now. This experience happened probably almost 10 years ago when Rev. Bill popped into our year class lecture night. Everyone as usual acted so honored to be graced with his presence.

After a little while of him making jokes and addressing the energy at the Academy he became dark as he usually did and began berating some of the bad ministers (Steve you were probably on his list at that time). I think he even talked about some of the people in the room. Then he became cruel in his speech, spewing off things, he was in rage.

Somehow being neutral did not apply to him. I was so uncomfortable and scared, I felt trapped because we were not suppose to leave the room especially if Bill was talking. I closed my eyes and attempted to ground and blow roses but I felt myself going so out of my body which I know now that I was in a state of dissociating which is a defense mechanism. I probably looked very tense because Bill literally shouted at me to open my eyes. He yelled at me because I was so uncomfortable. He told me I needed to be neutral and that I had to keep my eyes open and that if he saw me close my eyes again that he would kick me out of the class. I was shocked. And I felt even more trapped.

I just wanted to cry but I could not. So I had to sit there and practice being neutral. It was a horrible feeling. When I look back on this I still feel terrified. It was difficult having to sit through his gross lectures and tear down sessions of people I thought at the time and still do of people whom I liked and admired.

I wish now that I could have seen him for what he really was and could tell him, “Fuck you Bill, these people you talk about are so much better than you that they should wipe there asses with you.” Maybe in his next lives he will keep on being reincarnated as toilet paper. What a happy and just thought for those that believe in Karma.

March 9, 2009 7:11 AM

Mel said...

SRF neutrality means to stop what your doing, thinking and discerning and let me slime you with my way of thinking....

SRF neutrality means to let go of all your human frailties and let me take over your thinking for you.

SRF neutrality means those thoughts and emotions welling up inside of you are of use to you only if we see fit to using them for the church benefit.....Doing hard work at the farm in Bethel Island.

SRF neutrality means to be paired up with someone you or they resist on a personality level and told to get a reading from them. Kind of like hostages being held captive turning on each other within the high stressful scenario of not wanting to make a false move or say anything that will jeopardize your well being...

In other words, let us help you grow and sit there while another reads from there personality and fire off insults pretending to be a reading for your benefit.

Neutrality at SRF means: For your own good, listen and do what they say like a parent and not question it. Then watch hypocritically as Bill, Angela, Robin and Debi continue with the same dark energy patterns that they projected in your space.

Neutrality at SRF means to jack you up emotionally ala a pit bull, by building up someone to be a total jerk or bitch,..and then have you go with them in a camping/bonding type setting to neutralize the fucked up energies that pervade at the academy.....

Go clean out the funky energies in there space, because you have similar energy patterns in yours. O

h wait, you have to give up some of your privacy, work space, family space, and monies so that we don't have to deal with them....Is this the lazy mans guide to enlightenment?

March 9, 2009 8:22 AM

Anonymous said...

Dave's comments remind me of something that Lisa Lochsted said, "To Bill people at SRF are pawns in his own pscyodrama. Their own lives and story are of no regard.

People outside the academy are even less, they are empty pods." Joys comment and story she tells is a wonderful example of recovery. It is an acutely painful point the first time Bill is seen to be vicious to others and especially when he does it to yourself.

I had almost the same experience as joy. Joy remembered (it welled up) and experiences the anger and injustice of the awful situation. The mind control had her dumbfounded and deeply conflicted at the time, which is understandable.

Now she can see it and respond with the appropriate anger. At the same time we feel compassion for her. When I experienced what she did I also felt shame and a tendency to condemn myself. This is part of the mind control, so I see that she is being abused and deserves compassion and help.

Her anger helps her to get her strength back and the compassion tempers the the rage and self condemnatioin and brings her own voice into the situation so she can act from her true self. Thanks Joy, we appreciate you creating this blog so we can have a place for recovery.

steve March 13, 2009 1:57 PM

Anonymous said...

I find it interesting that so many of you maintain a spiritual or religious belief after your experiances. After several years of involvement (OK, not as a minister-in-training), I am a devoted atheist. Go figure. - DF

June 17, 2009 3:06 AM

I Do Declare...

Now before you guys read the following, I have to ask you to be sure you do not have a full stomach and that you have something to heave in nearby.


What follows are declarations from various persons and parties to the SLAPP suit the Academy for Psychic Studies, et. al. filed against you, me and Joy.


You'll notice a few things:  first, the Witches have used and exploited two young women in a manner that is so vile, I think calling it abuse would be putting it mildly.  The Witches are attempting to use the young women as human shields hoping the court and the public will agree they are only warm and nourishing spiritually perfect beings who have done nothing to deserve the tomatoes thrown at them - except for the cheating us out of all our money and leaving us scrambling to get by part.


You might also notice the Witches state they wanted to do exactly the opposite of what they actually did.  It appears they still believe the gobbledygook and idiot phrases concocted from their debilitated minds have any meaning in the real world.


Most important: you just might notice the highlighted portion of the cover sheet (which the attorney unnecessarily repeated all over this worthless document) names a defendant named "Doe".  Actually there are 99 defendants named "Doe".  Those are the 99 people who have read or contributed to this blog.

So, when people ask for proof the Witches of Ellsworth declared war on anyone who speak of the truth about the goings-on behind the wrought iron gate of the Academy for Psychic Studies, just show them the cover sheet.  If you read this blog, if you contributed to this blog, Angela Silva and Robin Dumolin have declared war on you by way of their lawsuit.


Now before any of you SRF trolls start whining about me posting statements of "children", first, these are statements of ADULTS.  They happen to be the adult children of their parent (which I know sounds obvious but you'd be surprised at how dumb these culties can be - well maybe you wouldn't).  

Second, these documents were not initiated by the two young women involved.  The attorney wrote the declaration (which is common) and the plaintiffs had the young women sign them.  You have to assume these statements were made only as an attempt to deflect attention away from the Witches and move it towards me and Joy.  Only the brain-dead followers of the Witches would think they are valid and legally relevant statements.


Last, these documents are public records related to a case that was filed in the Superior Court of California.  Therefore, they are privileged.  Therefore I have the absolute right to publish them.  So you bogus Nancy Grace wannabes can shut up.  When the obese SRF idiot tells you another lawsuit would be afoot, you can tell him my Doc Marten-clad foot will be happy to deliver yet another Beckham kick to the Witches' upturned hams by way of the Superior Court.  I beat them when they filed this lawsuit and I will beat them again - even in a lawsuit I would file against them.

Just as a quick refresh:  these two young women somehow discovered our blogs.  I would imagine they found out when the Witches were compelling them to go yell at their father, their friends, their friends fathers and anyone at all as a proxy for the Witches.  We all know that the Witches would never do what they could have another unsuspecting person do for them - especially this kind of dirty, underhanded and vile retaliation.


So, the young women began posting some pretty vile stuff on Joy's YouTube channel.  These comments were them without a doubt - they left their names on their posts.  The comments were warm and nourishing comments like "fuck you" and "you fucking bitch" and a warm an nourishing warning or two for Joy and I to watch our backs as one of the warm and nourishing members of SRF would conduct a special healing session with a baseball bat.


As a result of the nasty and threatening comments these two (and at least one of their colleagues) left on Joy's YouTube Channel, their nasty, hostile and dangerous comments were deleted and they were banned.


For good reason, I think.


However, the Witches believe these two are the aggrieved parties as their own actions brought them public shame and embarrassment.  I think most guys in prison believe the same thing.


More important, they invaded Joy's blog and left idiotic posts.  There is no way to exclude any person from posting on Blogger.  So, they were quite able to post as much as they please.  And post they did.


In response to their badly worded and poorly considered commentary, an enormous wave of blow back came their way.  They were pummeled for their comments as you might have expected.  They also stopped commenting on their own.  Probably the Witches told them to stop so the young women could be held up as victims of the evil and hostile world around them.  Unfortunately, that blew back as well.


It blew back in a very circuitous and strange way.  As you know, many of us have been saying the only kind of deal the Witches of Ellsworth will enter into with a follower is "heads I win, tails you lose".  Guess who always wins.  Guess who always loses.


Not too long ago, the Witches' Bishop was presented with exactly that kind of warm and nourishing deal.  This time, she wised up and walked out.  After the bishop became an ex-bishop, at least one of these young women discovered just how warm and nourishing her Witch of a godmother really was.


Angela the Witch of the, well, the witch, demanded the young woman's horse be removed from "the farm" at once.  Angela also related that the rest of the horses would be sold for dog food.


After a lot of hard work on the young woman's part, the horses were given better homes than Angela's decrepit ranch.  Some were sold at fire sale prices, some were just given away.  Of course like a mafia boss, Angela demanded the young woman give up any money received from the sale of the horses.  "Heads I win, tails you lose."


And the young woman got a whole new perspective on the woman she defended in a foolish, childish way.  Acting like a fool on behalf of a woman like Angela Silva is a lot like voting for Michelle Bachman for President - you'll live to regret it.


Looking back, it's funny, crazy and altogether strange to read these declarations.  At least one of them is written by someone who got screwed by the very person she intended to support and a party to this defeated lame effort got screwed by Angela Silva as well.


It's not often you see a total meltdown of an organization but this past few years have shown how an organization built on a bad intention and sustained through greed and exploitation will fall apart under its own evil payload.


Who would like to make a prediction on how much longer this place will last?

What the Hell are the Nine Great Scriptures?

The Nine Great Scriptures:

We would always hear about the "Nine Great Scriptures". Those nine great scriptures contained all the wisdom of the world. Bill Duby would frequently tell us that he actually sat down and studied each of those nine scriptures in detail. Once that course of study was completed, he was confident enough to become a spiritual teacher in the sacred home he called the Spiritual Rights Foundation.

But what are they and what pearls of wisdom do they contain?

Here is an excerpt from the founder of the Academy for Psychic Studies and Spiritual Rights Foundation site:

There are nine Great Scriptures upon this planet that in essence relate the same thing. Not to mention thousands of fabled stories from varied sources, and all of them are relating a divine message of import for the seeker of truth to become nourished upon for well being.

OK, there is no mention of exactly where those nine great scriptures came from, who wrote them or where they can be found.

Don't ask me what they are. In the more than a decade in Bill's presence, he never told me what those nine great scriptures are.

He never told anyone else, either. If the Academy for Psychic Studies knows them, I think the world would like to know what they are. If you Google "nine great scriptures", you will receive hits from this blog and the SRF web site. And a reference to the Ayurveda Healing Center's nine great Buddhist scriptures.

If you try to search for them outside of Google, you'll be at it for a long time. Quite a few people have been searching for years to figure out just what Bill was talking about. No one can find a thing.

So maybe we are just too stupid, misguided, unenlightened to know what they are. Maybe we just can't have the teaching. Maybe we are deceived by the world and are too consumed with our own avarice and crimes against God and SRF to recognize the nine great scriptures even if they dropped out of the sky and landed on our head.

So maybe those nine great scriptures are out there. But what are they?

Each of the major religions of the world have a scripture as its foundation. So, would those nine great scriptures be the foundation of:

1. Christianity
2. Judaism
3. Islam
4. Buddhism
5. Hinduism
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OK, so I can't name them. If anyone can, a dozen Krispy Kremes with your name on them are waiting.


In fact, I'll throw in nine more - one for each of the Great Scriptures.