Suffer in Peace, Bill.

Jeff, the Psychdoctorate left the following comment on the post "Farmyard Follies".

It's a well thought piece on what Rev. Bill Duby must have been encountering after his perverse, abusive and deranged practices were exposed to public view and condemnation.

Sure as long as no one knows about your bad behavior, it's OK, right?  That's what my niece thinks, anyway.  But the kind of thinking you would expect from a teen is not what you would find acceptable in a spiritual leader.

Ever since the groundbreaking, bombshell expose of the Spiritual Rights Foundation in the San Francisco Chronicle broke, there has been more and more of the craziness, abuse and perversion exposed.  It wasn't the only media coverage.  There was more.  Lots more from several other dissident followers - even the ex-wife of one devoted follower.

The cult's only defense to these true stories?  They never addressed them directly.  Instead, we heard the authors are lying, cheating, thieving, immoral and mentally deficient psychotics who have perverted the true nature of the peaceful practices of the Spiritual Rights Foundation.

At least, that is what the Witches of Ellsworth delighted in telling us.

They must have been looking in the mirror when they concocted that tall tale.

Bill, on the other hand, became more introspective and more concerned about the afterlife than ever.

One of his foster parents (the one he had formed the closest bond - to the point he called her "mom") was a very moral and religious woman.  I know all this because I met her at her home more than once.  She insisted on morally correct behavior with Bill, I am certain.  Bill was a good student and a high school star athlete under her guidance - a church-going and bible-believing young man as well.

Once away from his foster mother, Bill was drawn to the dark world of the streets of Emeryville, CA.  In his day, Emeryville was a rough place, filled with prostitutes, gamblers and the usually motley collection of street hustlers and con men.  Bill worked at his uncle's card room then, learning the gambling trade and spending much of his time interacting with the people on the street.  One of them was Rev. Angela Silva.

Bill's transformation from high school star athlete to hustler, con man and preacher was certainly a product of that environment. And that allowed him to take his Berkeley Psychic Institute education to start the Spiritual Rights Foundation.

I would bet BPI now wishes they kept him the hell out when they had a chance.

When the negative press about the Spiritual Rights Foundation and Bill in particular emerged, only Bill's wives were outraged.  Bill, uncharacteristically, withdrew.  I not only saw less of him but he was indeed not-so-glib and not-so-grandiose and shallow.  His famous tantrums were less than ever as he was too preoccupied to find demons among his followers.

I'm sure Bill found that his chickens had come home to roost and the vision of his foster mother shaking her head in disapproval found its way into his psyche.

The high school athlete with the morally strict mom began to return.

What might have happened after his epiphany had he lived long enough is anyone's guess.  I believe Bill would have toned down his aberrant behavior a little but would have allowed the picking of the follower's pockets and looting of their assets to continue.  I mean, he had two women to support, you know.

But instead, Bill dropped dead.

It had to happen.  The realization that he and he alone set the Spiritual Rights Foundation on a path that will lead it to a long, slow demise, the thought that he alone had left a path of destruction in his wake was too much to bear.  His foster mother, I am sure, instilled a sense of moral responsibility in Bill that was long ignored but never forgotten.

Unfortunately, his two wives never had that fundamental teaching.  And as Steve Sanchez said so well, only the ego's desire to avoid exposure of one's inner evil and its tendency to resist its elimination is the essential manifestation of hereditary evil.  In short, they appear to not know better but they should.

As Jeff has observed so well (and he did this well without even being there!) Bill's evil deeds came back to haunt him after experiencing a lifetime of an empty void deep within his being.

Jeff said it well: I pity you Bill.  It's all you deserve.

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PsychDoctorate said...

The term psychopath litterally translates into "suffering soul". Robert Hare, a man who studied sociopaths and psychopaths for many years in the prison system would say that this is an accurate description of these individuals. They are truly suffering souls, with a baren inner world filled with nothing but desolation, lonliness, isolation, rage and anguish. They take their deep suffering out on others because they lack empathy. Without empathy, they cannot love, they can only feel negative emotions such as hatred. They lack the moral and ethical components that make us human.

Their personalities are a facade. Something they hold onto, especially since all psychopaths are Narcissistic. However, this facade cannot be maintained and over time the "mask" falls off. Their glibness and false charm falls away and we (the victims) see the "suffering soul" for what they are. An emotionally bleak and baren landscape. It is a hard thing to view, for it is a void where there should be something. It has been said somewhere that if you look long enough into the void something will eventually look back! To those now leaving SRF and those who have left, they saw that void and they ran for their lives. Steve saw it, Mason saw it, Joy saw it and Mike all saw it. So have many others.

The women, Angela, Robin and Debbie saw it and embraced it letting the void despoil them. It eroded their sense of self, claimed their morals and corrupted their ethics. It made them mockeries of what they could be. It is sad.

It is good that Bill is dead, it is good that his "suffering soul" is now at rest. The desolation and corruption of his "subjects" and his reign of terror is over. Although the women cary his "essence" they cannot and do not have his charisma or glibness and too many have seen through their thin veneers.

Rest in peace Bill Duby, your reign of terror is gone. Your suffering soul will claim no more lives and harm no one else. From what I have heard, you are a pitiful thing.

Mike told me that near the end Bill called him, something deep inside of him knew his life was coming to a close. If I am correct (if not, Mike will fill in the proper details) you were showing some regret for you behaviors. You were feeling guilt and shame. Emotions you can feel as they do not require empathy to be understood. You knew and you were being forced to acknowledge your immoral and unethical (and illegal) behavior. The terror of seeing ones self so clearly is a humbling experiencing, espeically for the you the suffering soul.

I have nothing but pity for Bill, that is all he deserves.

Right now I am facing a huge loss in my life, my own sister is dying. We have never gotten along but she is trully suffering from a horrendous thing. She is dying of cancer that has spread. I wish her peace, I wish her strength and I wish her courage as she now leaves this world.

For all of the surviviors of Bill Duby's reign, I wish you courage, I wish you strength and I wish you peace. I also wish you a speedy recovery as you reclaim your own souls and rid yourself of the pain and suffering he inflicted upon you. I offer you compassion and deep empathy. I offer anyone coming from SRF who needs it, a safe place to speak about your trevails. Please contact Mike and he can put us into contact.

Best Regards,

Jeffrey

August 12, 2010 10:15 PM